ITERATION NO. 1 • OUT OF THE GATE

I often describe how becoming conscious of something is like placing an ice cube on the table to melt. You don't need to bash it with an ice pick or scorch it with a fire torch. Just leave it be. It'll melt effortlessly on it's own. There's nothing you need to do. Becoming aware was the work, and you already did it.

So when I became conscious of the inner work needed to Create the Master within, I dove right in and:

1. Parts Integration 2/10. Listed all the parts of me what I was aware of (eg. hyperachiever, HSP, mystic, abandoned child, etc. Oh man, there were so more parts that I wasn't aware of that surfaced over the years under the light of consciousness :S)
2. Business Tracker 4/10.Continued to boundaries around my time
3. Values Lantern 2/10. Signed up for coach training and learned about values (doesn't mean I lived by my values yet, I just knew about them intellectually)
4. Conscious Priorities 3/10 Reshuffled my priorities to put basic needs, such as sleep and body nourishment, at the top of my list
5. Ego Dis-identification 0/10. I bought Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth but hadn't read it yet, since I was still under the spell that busyness = self-worth
6. Post-it Wall of Greatness 5/10. Continued to celebrate my wins on my Post-it Wall of Greatness even though my sister told me I should take it down
7. Wounded Child Archetypes 1/10. Named and identified my wounded child 'Cora' but hadn't nearly begun the healing work (hey, a start is a start!)
8. Sacred archetypes 1/10. Stumbled upon a self-sabotage test and the report opened my eyes to how archetypal patterns rule our lives
9. Money Memory Purge 3/10 And lastly, I began making lists of all my negative associations with money and burning them.

ITERATION NO. 2 • OFF TO THE RACES!

Ego Dis-identification (1/10.) By now, I had read A New Earth and it blew my mind, heart and soul wide open. And all my tuners on my Part 1 • Create the Master • Freedom Tracker were out of the gate! It felt like an eternity, like molasses rolling up Everest on a frigid winter day. But hey, forward it forward, right?

The key to this pre-lift off stage is to radically eliminate everything that doesn't work and radically repeat everything that does work.

No, I couldn't manage to upgrade everything to 10/10 or to 200/10, all at once, but I nudged a good amount of tuners a little higher.

 Values Lantern (3/10) & ​Conscious Priorities (4/10). I continued to free up my time as my top priority because it is my MOST valuable asset. 

Post-it Wall of Greatness (7/10). I lead students to create their own Post-it Wall of Greatness in our High Return on Happiness Masterclass. And developed a habit of reading AND implementing a book a week, especially around money.

ITERATION NO. 3 • THE TIPPING POINT

Sacred archetypes (4/10). In this iteration is where archetypes imbued my life from Jung's psychological archetypes, to Caroline Myss's Sacred Archetypes, Branding with Archetypes and Money Archetypes!

I've always known that the best way to learn is to teach, so I guiding my clients to meet their archetypes and that helped me get more intimate with my own parts and archetypes.

 Values Lantern (5/10). It's also during this time that I got trained by my teacher Brené Brown, and received full permission to choose MY values (free from parental, cultural and patriarchal conditioning, including filial piety) and live them. This full permission also granted me the courage to hand out No's like a mofo or an ATM on the fritz spewing out $100 bank notes. The result: I freed up soooooo much of my time and filled my own cup before giving from my overflow.

It is also through Brené that I found my way to the work of Kristen Neff on self-compassion. Though there little to no traction on the Ego Dis-identification and Wounded Child front, I was at least gentle on myself, constantly reminding myself that I'm at least on the path.

Post-it Wall of Greatness (7/10) & Money Memory Purge (6/10). My clients continued to acknowledge themselves by making their Post-it Wall of Greatness (7/10) and burning their Negative Money Memory List (6/10) through our High Return on Happiness Masterclass. Courage is contagious. Purging is contagious. As my clients purged their money guilt or shame, I liberated them and they liberated me. Whaddya know, freedom is also contagious!

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ITERATION NO. 4 • GROWTH SPUR

And then, tada! I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I realized, at a visceral body level, that growth is not linear. It's twisty and winding and hella hard sometimes (or all the time), but it's also cumulative and exponential! There are tipping points after which everything you've ever been, done, read, learned or experienced converge and "Bam!" a big growth spur takes place.

My bestie Karen too a Neuroscience Certification and she helped me anchor the concept of "above the line" and "below the line." It took (what felt like) ages to get myself, my ego, all my parts, all my inner children, all my archetypes, the whole lot of 'em to above the line. It required not hard work or quantity of work, but enormous amounts of willingness, openness, dedication, and prayer.

And as a "Growth Spur" gift, the Universe sent me sociopathic goys and one jealous "queen bee" to cross my boundaries one FINAL time, for me to shoot up my time boundaries, values alignment, conscious priorities, greatness and sacredness through the roof!

Grace and mercy were my two bestfriends to release the heavy protective shells of ego, intergenerational trauma and scarcity, and as a result I became more whole.

The wounded children, I had 10 out of 12 of them. Ten! I thought I had 2-3 maybe 5. Ten! I knew that would take time. And I summoned my previously embodied practice of self-compassion to take the time it takes to maturate each of them within me.

1. Parts Integration 7/10.
2. Business Tracker 10/10.
3. Values Lantern 8/10. 
4. Conscious Priorities 8/10 
5. Ego Dis-identification 5/10. 
6. Post-it Wall of Greatness 9/10. 
7. Wounded Child Archetypes 5/10. 
8. Sacred archetypes 7/10. 
9. Money Memory Purge 7/10

Fill your own cup and give from your overflow. Only if you choose to.