Last week, I posed the question of:
- What makes someone who is a minority in my industry by my gender, skin color, age, introversion, sensitivity, approach to marketing, and by my approach to life... thrive?
- What makes me, someone who is easily overwhelmed, easily crushed, easily depressed and easily anxious... thrive?
How much pain can you endure?
Nobody told me that when I began this entrepreneurial freedom quest that I'd be called to do leadership work, consciousness work, and self-love work. Nobody told me that when I embraced the latter work, I'd smack into trauma work and family of origin work.
If I were a computer, then the Operating System that came factory installed in me was "Duty, Pain and Struggle." So when you run a program called "Joy", the system crashes. The OS treats it as a virus.
So could my gargantuan ability to endure pain, lots and lots of pain, explains my ability to thrive...?
The price of freedom
As I prepare to jet set off 13-country world tour this Saturday at 2:40pm, with coaching business in tow, I thought I'd have a delightful last week in Vancouver, filled with friends, good food, girl talk and celebration. Instead, it's been filled with tears and constant flashes of past betrayal, injustice and disappointment. Weird.
Nobody told me that witnessing and feeling your old self die off would be a slow torment. It's like being awake during surgery without anesthesia.
Who will you be? Person A, B, or C?
When a child tell you they have a dream, do you say:
Person A Go for it kid, just like I did!
Person B I had a dream once too kid, but I was afraid to pursue it.
Person C I had a dream once too kid, but... then you were born.
Freedom isn't free. I invested a lot of time, money, focus and attention to be able to take my wealth coaching practice with me on the road to 13 countries and meet up with leaders and friends from all over the world.
But more than that, I made a vow to myself that I'd never look at my child and say, "I had a dream once too kid, but... then you were born." I vowed to the world that I would never look at any child and say, "I had a dream once too kid, but I was afraid to pursue it."