My Opportestiny


A Freedompreneur's Journey of Opportunity + Test + Destiny


Work in Progress   |   Last Updated • Mar 25, 2024




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Every other day, I am haunted by the question,

How am I even still alive...
no less best pals with peace and joy?

If I wrote my whole story to my whole Self, could I be freed from this haunting?

Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery with seams of gold.

 

 

 

 

It honors each fragment's story and breathes
new life into a once broken, now original vessel.
 

The 4 Stages of Opportestiny


Stage 1 • The Smashing

The smashing of my 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults

SMASHING STORIES



Stage 2 • The Healing

The kintsugi of my 12 Wounded Children

Healing Stories



Stage 3 • The Reclamation

The kintsugi of my 12 Wounded Adults

Reclamation Stories



Stage 4 • The Integration

"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."

INTEGRATION STORIES


Grief Autopsy

A decimating examination of everything I ever lost... or never even had in the first place.










Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.

– Susan Cain


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This is my story.

This is my creative offering.

This is my Opportestiny ⤵︎

Ellany Lea - Spiritual Intelligence 4 Types of Knowing


Only in the fever of creation could she recreate her own lost life.

– Anaïs Nin


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Stage 1 • The Smashing (Children)



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Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Insufficient Child


Primary Smashing

The missing 1% Chronic T


Secondary Smashings

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The toilet water bullies Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Nutella knife Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Innocence
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am not enough.
I am spare parts.
I am a debt.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all parental deficiencies
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Parentified Child
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to parentification
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Skyholder

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Disposable Child


Primary Smashing

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The phone tape guts Big TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Worth
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am worthless.
I am garbage.
I am unlovable.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all gender inequality
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Girl
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be born
(... did I?)
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Wild Woman

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Failure Child


Primary Smashing

The cheque kneeling Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

The Nutella knife Small t

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-esteem
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I don't do enough.
I am incompetent.
I can't win.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human stunting
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ALSO KNOWN AS
ATM Machine
Money Tree
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to objectification and exploitation
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Overachiever

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Burden Child


Primary Smashing

The hallway holes Big TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The smashed car windows Small t

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Appetite for life

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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am too needy.
I am a bother.
It's best if I'm gone.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human scarcity
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Another Mouth to Feed
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to intergenerational scarcity
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Death Wisher

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Powerless Child


Primary Smashing

The basement gang Big T


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Big TPre 3

The greatness cancellation Big T

The neck yank Big TPre 3

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6

The name massacre bullies Chronic T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The toilet water bullies Chronic T

The shush net Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small tSeCONDARY T

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-compassion
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am helpless.
I am unsupported.
I am hopeless.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human cruelty
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Victim
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to siphon and suppression
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Mystic

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Abandoned Child


Primary Smashing

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Big TPre 3

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The neck yank Big TPre 3

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The greatness cancellation Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Nurturance
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am unwanted.
I am alone.
I am dumped.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human primitiveness
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Starseed
Orphan
Collateral Damage
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to dumpage on Earth
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Empath

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Too Much Child


Primary Smashing

The toilet water bullies Chronic T


Secondary Smashings

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The greatness cancellation Big T

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-trust
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am too intense.
I am too difficult.
I am crazy.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human ignorance
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Gifted Child
Target Practice
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to bullying and smart shaming
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Fire Phoenix

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Invisible Child


Primary Smashing

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The greatness cancellation Big T

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The toilet water bullies Chronic T

The name massacre Chronic T

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Relevance
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I don't matter.
I am not important.
I am irrelevant.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human unconsciousness
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Wallpaper
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to insignificance
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Moon Dragon

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Unsafe Child


Primary Smashing

The phone tape guts Big TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The greatness cancellation Big T

The smashed car windows Small t

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The basement gang Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6

The name massacre bullies Chronic T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The toilet water bullies Chronic T

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The shush net Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Safety
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am unprotected.
I am in danger.
I am unsafe.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human betrayal
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Sitting Duck
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSES
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to soul murder
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Ouroboros

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Freak Child


Primary Smashing

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Big TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The greatness cancellation Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The name massacre bullies Chronic T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The toilet water bullies Chronic T

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Belonging
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am too different.
I don't belong.
I am a reject.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human fracture
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Black Sheep
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSES
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to ostracization
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Polymath

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Mistake Child


Primary Smashing

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The greatness cancellation Big T

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The smashed car windows Small t

The name massacre bullies Chronic T

The Balkans bullies Chronic T

The toilet water bullies hronic T

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Validity
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am invalid.
I am wrong.
I am unacceptable.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human contempt
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Scapegoat
Sinner
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be blame landfill
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Immigrant

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Deprived Child


Primary Smashing  

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The hallway holes Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Deservingness
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I don't have.
I am poor.
I am siphoned.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human greed
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Alley Dog
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to poverty
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Freedompreneur









If only we didn't have to spend our entire adulthood recovering from our childhood.

– Ellany Lea


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Stage 1 • The Smashing (Adults)



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opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-moon-dragon   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-fire-phoenix   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-ouroboros   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-polymath   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-immigrant   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-freedompreneur

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Skyholder


Primary Smashing

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 20 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSDSeCONDARY T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The shush net Chronic T

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Childhood
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
All will die if I drop the sky.
It’s all on me alone forever.
I am crushed but no one cares.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by becoming everything to everyone all the time
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Atlas
Single Parent
Slave Captain
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to enslavement and siphon
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Insufficient Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Wild Woman


Primary Smashing

The shush net Chronic T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 16 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3 💰 PTSD

The greatness cancellation Big T

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The basement gang Big T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Dignity
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
My only value is in my utility to others.
I must deny my wild, my instincts.
I must stay small, silent and sweet.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by becoming the best white man I can be
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sheath
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to siphon and pillaging
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Disposable Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Overachiever


Primary Smashing

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 22 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The greatness cancellation Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Humaneness
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am not superhuman enough.
I must please + perform + produce + perfect or perish.
I am valid only if I achieve the impossible.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by working harder than a trekker up Everest during an Avalanche
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Sisyphus
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to self-emaciating overcompensation
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Failure Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Death Wisher


Primary Smashing

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 15 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The basement gang Big T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Will to live
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am nothing.
There is no point.
Earth is hell.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by joining the walking dead
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Call of the Void
"SI"
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be a Homo sapiens
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Burden Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Mystic


Primary Smashing

The steel toe boots Big T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 33 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Genius
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am to bare the pain for humanity.
“Conceal it, don’t feel it, don’t let it show.”
I am banished underground.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by inducing soul coma, heart armour, and body cloister
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Chiron
Sagittarius
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSES
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to witch burning
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Powerless Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Empath


Primary Smashing

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 26 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The basement gang Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The shush net Chronic T

The matchbox sparks Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Identity
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am no one.
I am now allowed to exist.
I must disappear to avoid persecution.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by throwing myself on the fire to keep them warm
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Martyr
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be sacrificial lamb
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Abandoned Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Moon Dragon


Primary Smashing

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 16 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The basement gang Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The shush net Chronic T

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T

The genocide skulls Small tSecondary T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Radiance
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
It’s a sin to shine.
It's my job to vanish into the background.
I must shut down my Knowing.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by fading to extinction
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Sacred Yin
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to oppression
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Invisible Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Fire Phoenix


Primary Smashing

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 11 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The basement gang Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The shush net Chronic T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Agency
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am a danger to others.
I must live in isolation.
I must fear and shut down my power.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by annihilating self
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Sacred Yang
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to persecution and human assholery
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Too Much Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Ouroboros


Primary Smashing

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3$ PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 41 smashings)

The launch funeral Big T$ PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T$ PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Wholeness
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am the broken one.
I must kamikaze myself.
I am trapped here forever.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by re-incarnating non-stop at hyper speed to save humanity
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Wheel of Karma
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to reincarnation
(... did I?)
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Unsafe Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Polymath


Primary Smashing

The greatness cancellation Big T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 16 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The iPhone watery grave Big T$ PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-expression 

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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
Only specialists have value.
Generalists are pariahs.
The DWG way is the only way.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by scurrying on the fringes of society
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Gifted Adult
NeurodivergentPTG Brain
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TRAUME RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to gag orders
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Freak Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Immigrant


Primary Smashing

The nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 21 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3$ PTSD

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The basement gang Big T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T$ PTSD

The co-signer con Big T$ PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 years Chronic TPre 6

The ballet tickets Chronic T$ PTSD

The shush net Chronic T

The matchbox sparks Big T$ PTSD

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Equity
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I must make up for my “Unacceptable”.
I am here to clean toilets and shut up.
I am a doormat for the DWG to wipe their feet on.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by doormat-ing to The Man
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Prey
Cheap Labor
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be hunted
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Mistake Child

Stage 1 • Smashing Stories

Freedompreneur


Primary Smashing

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its equivalent Wounded Child's 24 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The greatness cancellation Big T

The Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Choice
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CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am but a cog on the factory floor.
I owe my time and talents to the DWG.
I must rat race at a desk until I croak.

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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by being a flawless factory production line
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ALSO KNOWN AS
Spiritual Gangster
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
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STRESS RESPONSES
Freeze
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to DWG dictatorship
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CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Deprived Child





The first forty years of childhood are the hardest.

– Gas Station T-shirt







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Grief Autopsy Report

Cause of Death • Human cruelty and dumbassery

Coroner's Observation(s)

Deceased repeatedly treated as object (ATM, Sheath), animal (Scapegoat, Sitting Duck, Alley Dog), and mythological DWG (Atlas, Sisyphus)

Coroner's Remark(s)
Incarnation to Earth was a bad, bad idea

7
Small t's

SMALL T

From developmental neglect or arrest traumas
16.5
Big T's

BIG T

From one-time blunt force traumas
10
Chronic T's

CHRONIC T

From repeat or prolonged traumas
13
Complex T's

COMPLEX T

From multiple overlapping small, big and chronic traumas
9
Secondary PTSD

SECONDARY T

From secondary, intergenerational or inherited traumas
10
Pre 3 years old PTSD

PRE 3

From "you're pretty much f*cked for life" traumas
11
Pre 6 years old PTSD

PRE 6

From "you're f*cked for a long time, but there is hope" traumas
14.5
Financial PTSD

💰 PTSD

From chronic financial under-support and deprivation
15
Freeze Archetypes
It's a shocker I even get out of bed in the morning. 🙈
15
Flight Archetypes
It's a marvel I don't live permanently in a hospital bed. 🙉
18
Fawn Archetypes
It's a miracle I even have a self left! 🙊
0
Fight Archetypes
What can I say... I am not a fighter.

Dissection of Losses

Grief Autopsy and Universal Losses - Ellany Lea

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Note • This report does not include aaaaaall the daily mind, heart, body and soul pains and micro-assaults that don't "count" as trauma. Sigh.

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How?!

How am I even still alive...
no less best pals with peace and joy? ⤵︎

Fulfilling Freedom Iterations

Fulfilling Freedom

131 Countries

10 Types of Freedom

16 Careers

🤯 Spiritual Quotient

Ageless Joy + Vitality

And somehow...

0

BORN WITH

Zero male privilege
Zero white privilege
Zero trust fund
Zero inheritance
Zero family connections
Zero entrepreneurial DNA

0

GREW UP WITH

Zero guidance
Zero protection
Zero nurturance
Zero athletics
Zero music
Zero arts

0

RAISED WITH

Zero parent to pay my bills
Zero financial aid
Zero partner to have my back
Zero divorce/court alimony
Zero self-worth
Zero self-esteem

0

SURVIVED WITH

Zero help raising parents and siblings
Zero couch to have a
depression on
Zero person to nurse me
back to health

0
Alcohol
0
Drugs
0
Coffee
0
Pharma Rx
0
Eating Disorder
Institutionalization
Smoking
0
Shopping Addiction
Sex/"Love" Addiction
STDs
0
Phone Addiction
TV/Gaming Addiction
Gambling Addiction
0
Speeding Ticket
Bankruptcy
Criminal Record

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How?!?!

How did I survive...?

The 4 Types of Knowing

By recollecting all 4 types of knowing, every lost shard was painstakingly kintsugi'ed back together.

Mind-Knowing

🧠

Learned conceptual understanding
(aka knowledge)

Heart-Knowing

💖

Felt emotional comprehension
(aka compassion)

Body-Knowing

👣

Lived visceral experience
(aka wisdom)

Soul-Knowing

⭐️

Re-membered universal truth
(aka illumination)








Stage 2 • The Healing

  

HEALEDING (v.) healed, but ever healing...

Healeding Tracker

Innocence

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Insufficient Child

🧠 The lovability disk scratch

💖 The chest tattoo

💖 The leap into the unknown

💖 The 9 droplets

💖 The work ox

🧠 The shoulder intervention

🧠 The Wall of Greatness

🎳 The volcano lagoon

👣 The 4 flanks

💖 The mother famine

MY Anthem

Unstoppable

by Sia

Lyrics

I put my armor on, show you how strong I am
I'm a Porsche with no brakes
I don't need batteries to play

Healeding Tracker

Worth

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Disposable Child

🧠 The pony bite

🧠 The innocence type

💖 The golden buzzers

💖 The heartbroken heartbreaker

🎳 The ruby bubble burst

💖 The duck duck poo

🧠 The movement of the heart

👣 The upside down monkey

⭐️ The dew drop curtwheel

💖 The play paddles

🧠 The scheduled spontaneity

🎳 She moves hearts

🧠 The unwelcome

🧠 The abandonment despair

MY Anthem

Queendom

by AURORA

Lyrics

The women will be my soldiers
With the weight of life on their shoulders
Drink until you've had enough
I'll drink from your hands
I will be your warrior
I will be your lamb

Healeding Tracker

Self-esteem

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Failure Child

💖 The 58min blackout

⭐️ The root curse

🧠 The letter to the Money Tree

🧠 The factory floor

🎳 The carpel tunnel shortcircuit

💖 The organ donor

💖 The strings cutting

👣 The binder handover

⭐️ The sky funeral

💖 The maid money

🧠 The Universal Declaration of Human Rights

MY Anthem

How Far I'll Go

by Auli'i Cravalho

Lyrics

I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water
No matter how hard I try
Every road leads back
To the place I know where I cannot go
Where I long to be

Healeding Tracker

Appetite for life

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Burden Child

👣 The ferris wheel pickup

💖 The 99 cent ramen

👣 The micro-sips

👣 The shawl

👣 The humanity barf

👣 The cost of life purge

🧠 The sand script

MY Anthem

The Seed

by AURORA

Lyrics

Suffocate me
So my tears can be rain
I will water the ground where I stand
So the flowers can grow back again
'Cause just like the seed
Everything wants to live

Healeding Tracker

Self-compassion

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Powerless Child

💖 The canaries in cole mines

🧠 The depressed chimps

👣 The multi-sensory vindication

👣 The bucket of self-hatred

🎳 The grief cork

👣 The Acroyoga base

💖 The shards and tar tower

🧠 The defunct receptors

💖 The Leslie love

💖 The air filters

👣 The funeral at the End of the World

MY Anthem

LOVE IS THE ANSWER

by Natalie Taylor

Lyrics

I know it's a fight
Not to end every day feeling like you've been living a lie
If you're looking for a sign
Something to carry you back into the light
Love is the answer

Healeding Tracker

Nurturance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Abandoned Child

🧠 The zipline burp

💖 The delivery waiting room

💖 The spare rooms

👣 The gravesite hand

🧠 The Wounded Angel

💖 The Little Matchstick Girl

👣 The snake skin lick

💖 The little truck crew

⭐️ The Indigo Child

👣 The chest lean

👣 Lavender Fields rub

💖 Elliott's tears

👣 The Starseed squishy

MY Anthem

Ikinaide

by Koji Tamaki - Dimash Qudaibergen Cover

Lyrics

いつか心は いつか
遠いどこかで
みんな想い出になると
知らなくていいのに

Healeding Tracker

Relevance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Invisible Child

🧠 The handpicked intern

💖 The drawbridges down

🎳 The soil in my fingernails

💖 The friend's closet

👣 The Artist’s Way

💖 The coaxing out

👣 The throat chakra purge

💖 The adopted family

MY Anthem

THE PRAYER

by Céline Dion, Andrea Bocelli

Lyrics

A ricordarci che
L’eterna stella sei
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverà

Healeding Tracker

Self-trust

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Too Much Child

🧠 The not-friends

🧠 The "deepest fear" poem

⭐️ The Light of Love

🧠 The HSP and HSS cocktail

🧠 The black cat wax

👣 The death of the Restless

🧠 The autism spectrum client

🧠 The Gifted Adult

🧠 The smart shaming

💖 The forgiveness mantra

💖 The lost decades

👣 The creative aqueduct

MY Anthem

Titanium

by David Guetta, Sia

Lyrics

Shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall

Healeding Tracker

Safety

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Unsafe Child

👣 The trust fall

⭐️ The left pocket keys

💖 The bus ticket hero

👣 The fembot guns

👣 Jordanian roar

👣 The spiritual surgery

🧠 The disorganized attachment style

🎳 The terror doves

🧠 The rowing leaf

💖 The umpire "Safe!"

⭐️ The lifetimes of danger

🧠 The Oprah Chopra meditations

⭐️ The gatekeeper

👣 The crystal dome

👣 Los Cauquenes

🧠 The C. elegans petri dish

MY Anthem

Believer

by Imagine Dragons

Lyrics

I was choking in the crowd
Building my rain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
'til it broke open, and it rained down

Healeding Tracker

Belonging

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Freak Child

🧠 Pus in Boots

👣 The walk Home

💖 The Humpty Dumpty

👣 The Antigravity Skylabs

🧠 The sisterhood rain drops 

👣 The Odessa taxi

💖 The Dori shells

🎳 The Void

👣 The purging at both ends

⭐️ The re-membering of the sea

MY Anthem

This Is Me

by Keala Settle and The Greatest Showman Ensemble

Lyrics

But I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious

Healeding Tracker

Validity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Mistake Child

🧠 The Quiet Revolution

💖 The Reverse Role Models

👣 The harmony third-eye

⭐️ The hermit Kermit

💖 The Daring Way project

👣 The love battery

🧠 The thicker skin

🧠 The ribs extension

👣 The notetaker

💖 The neurodivergent overlap

⭐️ The Grand Crosses

🧠 The fawn-freeze subtype

MY Anthem

Resurrection Lily

by 안예은 - Wan Yihwa Cover

Lyrics

다시 돌아올 수 없는 그 험한 길 위에
어찌하다 오르셨소
내가 가야만 했었던 그 험한 길 위에
그대가 왜 오르셨소?

Healeding Tracker

Deservingness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 2 • Healing Stories

Deprived Child

🧠 The money memory purge

👣 The passive income nectar

👣 The scarcity pebbles

💖 The co-signer semi-con

⭐️ The banshee blackout

🧠 The ladybug keychain

👣 The vines of peaches

⭐️ The cutting of chords

🧠 The Dr. Bailey whiff

👣 The heart lavage

👣 The Declaration of Receivership

👣 The suitcase of Havingness

🧠 The financial PTSD

MY Anthem

Vuela Con el Viento

by Ayla Schafer

Lyrics

Llévame con tus alas de luz
Águila, tráenos medicina
Del viento, del aire, de las estrellas, del sol
Brillando, me guía el camino







If you don't let your past die,
it won't let you live.

– Ellany Lea 




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Stage 3 • The Reclamation 

  

RECLAIMEDING • (v.) reclaimed, but ever reclaiming...

Reclaimeding Tracker

Childhood

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Skyholder

🎳 THE BIG THAW

💖 The silent hour

⭐️ The incinerator abdication

👣 The blanket lift

🎳 The Westerbeke bench

🧠 The unselfish self-care

🧠 The neglect trauma

🧠 The personal responsibility

💖 The single parent grief

⭐️ The ox cart dream

🧠 The capacity for joy

👣 The safari backseat

🧠 Mulan's stupid sword

MY Anthem

Let Me Fall

by Josh Groban

Lyrics

The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
Though the phoenix may or may not rise
I will dance so freely, holding on to no one

Reclaimeding Tracker

Dignity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Wild Woman

🎳 The spinal knot

⭐️ The apartment siege

🧠 The sewing machine

🧠 The disgust-o-meter

⭐️ The condo sale

💖 The dissident daughter

👣 The boxing gloves

🎳 The walking debt

💖 The conscious uncoupling

🧠 The Women Who Run with Wolves

👣 The patriarchy barf

⭐️ The husband maker

⭐️ The oppression merry-go-round

🧠 The inequality

💖 The pyjama pizzas, lone islands and big spoon

💖 The navy captain

MY Anthem

Revolution

by The Score

Lyrics

Can't let time keep passing me by
Run down what I've always been chasing
Black out every fear I've been facing
All my wolves, begin to howl
Wake me up, the time is now

Reclaimeding Tracker

Humaneness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Overachiever

💔 The best eldest son

👣 The fields of gold

🧠 The PQ test

💖 Overachievers Anonymous

👣 The trophies in the garbage

💖 The pull over pride

👣 The perfectionist extraction

⭐️ The roasted butterfly

🎳 The zing Being

💖 The hyperachiever's forgiveness

🧠 The Human Design generator

MY Anthem

Hall of Fame

by The Script

Lyrics

You can go the distance, you can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be a hero, you could get the gold

Reclaimeding Tracker

Will to Live

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Death Wisher

⭐️ The Darwin Awards

💖 The mentor heart-ears

👣 The handgliding voice

🧠 The life boat

💖 The secret dove

⭐️ The end before the end

🎳 The comet in the body

🧠 The pain generator

🧠 The cat with 9 lives

👣 The Destroyer

⭐️ The spiritual clutch

MY Anthem

S.O.S. d'un terrien en détresse

by Daniel Balavoine - Dimash Qudaibergen Cover

Lyrics

Je crois capter des ondes
Venues d'un autre monde
J'ai jamais eu les pieds sur terre
Si jamais c'était plus beau
Plus beau vu d'en haut

Reclaimeding Tracker

Genius

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Mystic

👣 The mercy juicer

👣 The sacred peacock

👣 The chosen lightning bolt

⭐️ The tuning fork

⭐️ The Mystic Academy

🎳 The dissolving into Oneness

⭐️ The channel opening

👣 The vaccum vortex

🧠 The witch burning genes

🧠 The Boddhisatva

💖 The giant builder

⭐️ The Warrior Academy

🧠 The film strip

👣 The aurora lulluaby

🎳 The 5 clairs

💖 The Chiron crossfire

MY Anthem

Whatever It Takes

by Imagine Dragons

Lyrics

An epoxy to the world and the vision we've lost
I'm just a symbol to remind you that there's more to see
And yet a masterpiece, and yet I'm half-diseased

Reclaimeding Tracker

Identity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Empath

👣 The samurai knee slice

🧠 The client migraine attack

⭐️ The portals clearing

👣 The Seoul train

🧠 The castle crest

🧠 The ungloved Rogue

👣 The martyr curse purge

🧠 The 7 things white people taught me

💖 The Oxford ninja

⭐️ The even playing field

⭐️ Unfusing Cora

🧠 The siddhis

💖 The Cerebro helmet

MY Anthem

I'm So Spiritual

by Charlotte Donachie

Lyrics

And I do 5Rhythms
My child's high vibe, it's not autism
I'm more spiritual than you
I've got a drum and a fuck off gong
And a Spotify playlist called Medicine Songs

Reclaimeding Tracker

Radiance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Moon Dragon

⭐️ The peace locomotive

💖 The cuddle buddy

⭐️ The radiant sunset

⭐️ The original name

👣 The horse dismount

👣 The peeled sock

💖 The walk of glory

👣 The lunacy purge

👣 The aurora hunters

👣 The human defibrillator

👣 The swallowed pearl

🎳 She is the medicine

⭐️ The braingasm

MY Anthem

Blessed We Are

by Peia

Lyrics

We hold a prayer for the Earth
For the ones yet to come
May you walk in beauty
And remember your song

Reclaimeding Tracker

Power

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Fire Phoenix

👣 The gag removed

👣 The truth shrills

🎳 The murdered Pollyanna

⭐️ Jane, let go!

👣 The Madventure invincibility

👣 The antigravity training

🧠 Her Rage

💖 The Room vermin

👣 The rage burial

⭐️ The non-playable characters

👣 The auto-vomit

MY Anthem

Let's Do This

by Outskrts

Lyrics

Can you feel the fire
Runnin' through your veins?
Now you're burning brighter
Don't look away
Shout out to the legends
Rising from the wreckage

Reclaimeding Tracker

Wholeness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Ouroboros

👣 The labyrinth grip

🧠 The 98 lives

💖 The stolen youth

👣 The sacred solitude

🎳 Yagé Love

👣 The galaxy in her hips

💖 The Heroine's Journey

🧠 The Hero's Journey

⭐️ The Liberator's Journey

🎳 My Tree of Life

🧠 The shitshow birth chart

⭐️ The Earth School fine print

MY Anthem

Born For This

by The Score

Lyrics

We are the warriors, who learned to love the pain
We come from different places but have the same name
'Cause we were born for this

Reclaimeding Tracker

Self-expression

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Polymath

MY Anthem

It's My Life

by Bon Jovi

Lyrics

And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
I just want to live while I'm alive

Reclaimeding Tracker

Equity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Immigrant

🧠 The rice paddy peasant

👣 The anxiety placenta

💖 The surrogate apology

💖 The frozen ants

💖 The World Expo savages

👣 The chooner fish

⭐️ The higher harmonics

👣 The weightless turtles

👣 Boutique Luxury

👣 The baby bird

🧠 The Mr. Rogers vest

👣 The boutique luxury

🧠 Oh, the parentals

MY Anthem

Underdog

by Alicia Keys

Lyrics

On the run from a country where they put you in prison
For being a woman and speaking your mind
They said I would never make it
But I was built to break the mold

Reclaimeding Tracker

Choice

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Stage 3 • Reclamation Stories

Freedompreneur

💖 The Alhambra segway

👣 The shaking smoothie

🧠 The busyness tracker

👣 The digital nomad

👣 The 16 countries in 16 weeks

👣 The 52 green lights

👣 The warm leggings

👣 The pillow fort

🎳 The awe antidote

⭐️ Go, go now!

🎳 The story doves

🧠 The steadfast tortoise

🧠 The 25 Faces of Fear

MY Anthem

Legends Are Made

by Sam Tinnesz

Lyrics

I'm like a titan that's risin'
Oh, just you watch
I'm steppin' into fate
There is no time to waste
I've got that lightnin' inside me




Grieve. For everything you ever lost will come back to you in another form.

– Ellany Lea






 

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Stage 4 • The Integration

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A Repartee with the Universe

Me • Hey.

The Universe • Sup.

Me • So. Let me get this straight. For me to live safely and freely on Earth, I have to:

  1. reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Children
  2. kintsugi them into adults
  3. reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Adults
  4. kintsugi them into healed adults
  5. kintsugi the healed adults into Moon Dragon (yin) and Fire Phoenix (yang)
  6. kintsugi the Moon Dragon and Fire Phoenix into the Ouroboros (yin-yang)
  7. kintsugi the Polymath and Freedompreneur into the Liberator
  8. and train the Liberator to free the Ouroboros from its Wheel of Karma

The Universe • Yep.

Me • Just that?

The Universe • Just that.

Me • No biggie?

The Universe • No biggie.

(First Published Oct 1, 2018)





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