Opportestiny
A Freedompreneur's Stories of Opportunity + Test + Destiny
Work in Progress | Last Updated • Sep 25, 2023
Every other day, I am haunted by the question,
How am I even still alive...
no less thriving?
If I wrote my whole story to my whole self, could I be freed from the haunting?
Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery
with seams of gold.
It honours each fragment's story and
breaths new life into a once broken, now original, vessel.
The 4 Stages of Opportestiny ⤵︎
Stage 1 • The Smashing
The smashing of my 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults
Stage 4 • The Integration
"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."
INSUFFICIENT CHILD
SKYHOLDER
UNSAFE CHILD
DISPOSABLE CHILD
OVERACHIEVER
TOO MUCH CHILD
ABANDONED CHILD
EMPATH
Free will
FREEDOMPRENEUR
DEPRIVED CHILD
DEATH WISHER
FAILURE CHILD
FREAK CHILD
BURDEN CHILD
FIRE PHOENIX
POLYMATH
MYSTIC
Self-compassion
POWERLESS CHILD
WILD WOMAN
MISTAKE CHILD
INVISIBLE CHILD
MOON DRAGON
IMMIGRANT
OUROBOROS
Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.
– Susan Cain
This is my story.
This is my creative offering.
This is my Opportestiny.
Smashing Stories
Insufficient Child
Primary Smashing
The missing 1% Chronic T
Secondary Smashings
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The Nutella knife Small t
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
Single Parent
I am unlovable.
I am insufficient.
Smashing Stories
Disposable Child
Primary Smashing
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
Secondary Smashings
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3SeCONDARY T
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
I am disposable.
I am worthless.
(... did I?)
Smashing Stories
Failure Child
Primary Smashing
The cheque kneeling Chronic T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD
The Nutella knife Small t
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T
Money Tree
I am a failure.
I am a mess.
Smashing Stories
Burden Child
Primary Smashing
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
Secondary Smashings
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The smashed car windows Small t
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The Nutella knife Small t
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
It’s best if I’m gone.
I am a burden.
Smashing Stories
Powerless Child
Primary Smashing
The basement gang Big T
Secondary Smashings
The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3
The greatness cancellation Big T
The neck yank Big TPre 3
The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The tearless Guan Yin Small t
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The Gulf mass graves Small tSeCONDARY T
The genocide skulls Small tSeCONDARY T
I am hopeless.
I am powerless.
Smashing Stories
Abandoned Child
Primary Smashing
The Y brass knob Big TPre 3
Secondary Smashings
The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The neck yank Big TPre 3
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The greatness cancellation Big T
The potato fingers Big T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
Collateral Damage
I am not wanted.
I am abandoned.
Smashing Stories
Too Much Child
Primary Smashing
The greatness cancellation Big T
Secondary Smashings
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
Target Practice
I am too intense.
I am too much.
Smashing Stories
Invisible Child
Primary Smashing
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
Secondary Smashings
The greatness cancellation Big T
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The name massacre (grade 4-6) Chronic T
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The tearless Guan Yin Small t
Blind Spot
I am not important.
I am invisible.
Smashing Stories
Unsafe Child
Primary Smashing
The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3
Secondary Smashings
The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The greatness cancellation Big T
The smashed car windows Small t
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The AA basement Big T
The steel toe boots Big T
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The Nutella knife Small t
The tearless Guan Yin Small t
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T
The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T
I am unprotected.
I am unsafe.
Smashing Stories
Freak Child
Primary Smashing
The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6
Secondary Smashings
The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3SeCONDARY T
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The greatness cancellation Big T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
I don’t belong.
I am a freak.
Smashing Stories
Mistake Child
Primary Smashing
The machete target practice Complex TPre 6
Secondary Smashings
The greatness cancellation Big T
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The smashed car windows Small t
The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T
The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T
The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The defective thing Complex TPre 6
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The Nutella knife Small t
The tearless Guan Yin Small t
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
I am wrong.
I am a mistake.
Secondary • Flight
Smashing Stories
Deprived Child
Primary Smashing
The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6
Secondary Smashings
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3
The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6
The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6
The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The river dump girl Complex TPre 3
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
I lack.
I am deprived.
Secondary • Fawn
I wish we didn't have to spend our entire adulthood recovering from our childhood.
– Ellany Lea
Smashing Stories
Skyholder
Primary Smashing
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 16 smashings)
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSDSeCONDARY T
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T
The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T
Slave Captain
It’s all on me alone forever.
I am crushed but no one cares.
Smashing Stories
Wild Woman
Primary Smashing
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3 💰 PTSD
The greatness cancellation Big T
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The AA basement Big T
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The Chintok harassment Chronic T
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T
I must deny my wild, my instincts.
I must stay small, silent and sweet.
Smashing Stories
Overachiever
Primary Smashing
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 19 smashings)
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The greatness cancellation Big T
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The steel toe boots Big T
The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T
I must please + perform + produce + perfect or perish.
I am valid only if I achieve the impossible.
Smashing Stories
Death Wisher
Primary Smashing
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 11 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The AA basement Big T
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The steel toe boots Big T
The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
"SI"
There is no point.
Earth is hell.
Smashing Stories
Mystic
Primary Smashing
The steel toe boots Big T
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 29 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T
Sagittarius
“Conceal it, don’t feel it, don’t let it show.”
I am banished underground.
Smashing Stories
Empath
Primary Smashing
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 22 smashings)
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
The AA basement Big T
The steel toe boots Big T
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T
The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T
I am now allowed to exist.
I must disappear to avoid persecution.
Smashing Stories
Moon Dragon
Primary Smashing
The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
The AA basement Big T
The steel toe boots Big T
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T
The genocide skulls Small tSecondary T
It's my job to vanish into the background.
I must shut down my Knowing.
Smashing Stories
Fire Phoenix
Primary Smashing
Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 11 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The AA basement Big T
The steel toe boots Big T
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD
The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD
The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD
The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD
I must live in isolation.
I must fear and shut down my power.
I must kamikaze myself.
I am trapped here forever.
(... did I?)
Smashing Stories
Polymath
Primary Smashing
The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)
The stolen Pentium tower Big T
The iPhone watery grave Big T$ PTSD
The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6$ PTSD
PTG Brain
Generalists are pariahs.
The DWG way is the only way.
Smashing Stories
Immigrant
Primary Smashing
The nausea crossing handler Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T
The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T
The bracelet in the diaper Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T
The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T
Secondary Smashings
(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 21 smashings)
The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3$ PTSD
The potato fingers Big T
The someone you know Big T
The AA basement Big T
Fraud and Frauder Big T$ PTSD
The co-signer con Big T$ PTSD
The 7 schools in 9 years Chronic TPre 6
The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T$ PTSD
The sociopath shush netting Chronic T
The sociopath matchbox Big T$ PTSD
The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6$ PTSDSeCONDARY T
Cheap Labor
I am here to clean toilets and shut up.
I am a doormat for the DWG to wipe their feet on.
I owe my time and talents to the DWG.
I must rat race at a desk until I croak.
The first forty years of childhood are the hardest.
– Gas Station T-shirt
SMALL T
BIG T
CHRONIC T
COMPLEX T
SECONDARY T
PRE 3
PRE 6
💰 PTSD
* This report does not include aaaaaall the daily physical, emotional, psychological and spiritual pain and microaggressions that don't "count" as trauma. Sigh.
How?!
How am I even still alive...
no less thriving? ⤵︎
And somehow...
BORN WITH
Zero male privilege
Zero white privilege
Zero trust fund
Zero family connections
Zero self-worth
Zero self-esteem
GREW UP WITH
Zero nurturance
Zero protection
Zero guidance
Zero athletics
Zero music
Zero arts
RAISED MYSELF WITH
Zero parental support
Zero partner to pay my bills
Zero financial aid
Zero inheritance
Zero divorce
Zero court alimony
SURVIVED WITH
Zero couch to have a
depression on
Zero person to nurse me
back to health
Zero partner to do life with
Zero coffee
Drugs
Rehab
Smoking
as a coping mechanisms
Shopping Addiction
Bankruptcy
as a coping mechanisms
Institutionalization
Body Dysmorphia
Sex/"Love" Addiction
as a coping mechanisms
Social Media Addictions
Criminal Record
as a coping mechanisms
How?!?!
Mind-Knowing
🧠
(n.) Learned cognitive understanding, culminating in
knowledge
Heart-Knowing
💖
(n.) Felt emotional comprehension, culminating in
compassion
Body-Knowing
👣
(n.) Lived visceral
experience, culminating in
wisdom
Soul-Knowing
⭐️
(n.) Remembering of
universal truth, culminating in
illumination
Worth
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
🧠 The lovability disk scratch
💖 The chest tattoo
💖 The leap into the unknown
💖 The 9 droplets
💖 The work ox
🧠 The shoulder intervention
🧠 The Wall of Greatness
🎳 The volcano lagoon
👣 The 4 flanks
💖 The mother famine
Lyrics
I put my armor on, show you how strong I am
I'm a Porsche with no brakes
I don't need batteries to play
Innocence
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
🧠 The pony bite
🧠 The innocence type
💖 The golden buzzers
💖 The heartbroken heartbreaker
🎳 The ruby bubble burst
💖 The duck duck poo
🧠 The movement of the heart
👣 The upside down monkey
⭐️ The dew drop curtwheel
💖 The play paddles
🧠 The scheduled spontaneity
🎳 She moves hearts
🧠 The unwelcome
🧠 The abandonment despair
Lyrics
The women will be my soldiers
With the weight of life on their shoulders
Drink until you've had enough
I'll drink from your hands
I will be your warrior
I will be your lamb
Self-esteem
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
💖 The 58min blackout
⭐️ The root curse
🧠 The letter to the Money Tree
🧠 The factory floor
🎳 The carpel tunnel shortcircuit
💖 The organ donor
💖 The strings cutting
👣 The binder handover
⭐️ The sky funeral
💖 The maid money
🧠 The Universal Declaration of Human Rights
Lyrics
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water
No matter how hard I try
Every road leads back
To the place I know where I cannot go
Where I long to be
Appetite for life
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 The ferris wheel pickup
💖 The 99 cent ramen
👣 The micro-sips
👣 The shawl
👣 The humanity barf
👣 The cost of life purge
🧠 The sand script
Lyrics
Suffocate me
So my tears can be rain
I will water the ground where I stand
So the flowers can grow back again
'Cause just like the seed
Everything wants to live
Self-compassion
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
💖 The canaries in cole mines
🧠 The depressed chimps
👣 The multi-sensory vindication
👣 The bucket of self-hatred
🎳 The grief cork
👣 The Acroyoga base
💖 The shards and tar tower
🧠 The defunct receptors
💖 The Leslie love
💖 The air filters
👣 The funeral at the End of the World
Lyrics
We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Nurturance
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
🧠 The zipline burp
💖 The delivery waiting room
💖 The spare rooms
👣 The gravesite hand
🧠 The Wounded Angel
💖 The Little Matchstick Girl
👣 The snake skin lick
💖 The little truck crew
⭐️ The Indigo Child
👣 The chest lean
👣 Lavender Fields rub
💖 Elliott's tears
👣 The Starseed squishy
Lyrics
いつか心は いつか
遠いどこかで
みんな想い出になると
知らなくていいのに
Relevance
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️
🧠 The handpicked intern
💖 The drawbridges down
🎳 The soil in my fingernails
💖 The friend's closet
👣 The Artist’s Way
💖 The coaxing out
👣 The throat chakra purge
💖 The adopted family
Lyrics
We are billions of beautiful hearts
And you sold us down the river too far
We are children that need to be loved
Oh, what about love?
Self-trust
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
🧠 The not-friends
🧠 The "deepest fear" poem
⭐️ The Light of Love
🧠 The HSP and HSS cocktail
🧠 The black cat wax
👣 The death of the Restless
🧠 The autism spectrum client
🧠 The Gifted Adult
🧠 The smart shaming
💖 The forgiveness mantra
💖 The lost decades
👣 The creative aqueduct
Lyrics
Shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Safety
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
ddd
Lyrics
I was choking in the crowd
Building my rain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
'til it broke open, and it rained down
Belonging
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
🧠 Pus in Boots
👣 The walk Home
💖 The Humpty Dumpty
👣 The Antigravity Skylabs
🧠 The sisterhood rain drops
👣 The Odessa taxi
💖 The Dori shells
🎳 The Void
👣 The purging at both ends
⭐️ The re-membering of the sea
Lyrics
But I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious
Validity
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
ddd
Lyrics
다시 돌아올 수 없는 그 험한 길 위에
어찌하다 오르셨소
내가 가야만 했었던 그 험한 길 위에
그대가 왜 오르셨소?
Deservingness
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
(Stories to be listed Sep 22)
Lyrics
Llévame con tus alas de luz
Águila, tráenos medicina
Del viento, del aire, de las estrellas, del sol
Brillando, me guía el camino
If you don't let your past die, it won't let you live.
– Ellany Lea
Childhood
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
🎳 THE BIG THAW
💖 The silent hour
⭐️ The incinerator abdication
👣 The blanket lift
🎳 The Westerbeke bench
🧠 The unselfish self-care
🧠 The neglect trauma
🧠 The personal responsibility
💖 The single parent grief
⭐️ The ox cart dream
🧠 The capacity for joy
👣 The safari backseat
🧠 Mulan's stupid sword
Lyrics
The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
Though the phoenix may or may not rise
I will dance so freely, holding on to no one
Sacredness
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
🎳 The spinal knot
⭐️ The apartment siege
🧠 The sewing machine
🧠 The disgust-o-meter
⭐️ The condo sale
💖 The dissident daughter
👣 The boxing gloves
🎳 The walking debt
💖 The conscious uncoupling
🧠 The Women Who Run with Wolves
👣 The patriarchy barf
⭐️ The husband maker
⭐️ The oppression merry-go-round
🧠 The inequality
💖 The pyjama pizzas, lone islands and big spoon
💖 The navy captain
Lyrics
Can't let time keep passing me by
Run down what I've always been chasing
Black out every fear I've been facing
All my wolves, begin to howl
Wake me up, the time is now
Humanness
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💔 The best eldest son
👣 The fields of gold
🧠 The PQ test
💖 Overachievers Anonymous
👣 The trophies in the garbage
💖 The pull over pride
👣 The perfectionist extraction
⭐️ The roasted butterfly
🎳 The zing Being
💖 The hyperachiever's forgiveness
🧠 The Human Design generator
Lyrics
You can go the distance, you can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be a hero, you could get the gold
Will to Live
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ The Darwin Awards
💖 The mentor heart-ears
👣 The handgliding voice
🧠 The life boat
💖 The secret dove
⭐️ The end before the end
🎳 The comet in the body
🧠 The pain generator
🧠 The cat with 9 lives
👣 The Destroyer
⭐️ The spiritual clutch
Lyrics
Je crois capter des ondes
Venues d'un autre monde
J'ai jamais eu les pieds sur terre
Si jamais c'était plus beau
Plus beau vu d'en haut
Genius
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 The mercy juicer
👣 The sacred peacock
👣 The chosen lightning bolt
⭐️ The tuning fork
⭐️ The Mystic Academy
🎳 The dissolving into Oneness
⭐️ The channel opening
👣 The vaccum vortex
🧠 The witch burning genes
🧠 The Boddhisatva
💖 The giant builder
⭐️ The Warrior Academy
🧠 The film strip
👣 The aurora lulluaby
🎳 The 5 clairs
💖 The Chiron crossfire
Lyrics
An epoxy to the world and the vision we've lost
I'm just a symbol to remind you that there's more to see
And yet a masterpiece, and yet I'm half-diseased
Identity
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
👣 The samurai knee slice
🧠 The client migraine attack
⭐️ The portals clearing
👣 The Seoul train
🧠 The castle crest
🧠 The ungloved Rogue
👣 The martyr curse purge
🧠 The 7 things white people taught me
💖 The Oxford ninja
⭐️ The even playing field
⭐️ Unfusing Cora
🧠 The siddhis
💖 The Cerebro helmet
Lyrics
And I do 5Rhythms
My child's high vibe, it's not autism
I'm more spiritual than you
I've got a drum and a fuck off gong
And a Spotify playlist called Medicine Songs
Radiance
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
⭐️ The peace locomotive
💖 The cuddle buddy
⭐️ The radiant sunset
⭐️ The original name
👣 The horse dismount
👣 The peeled sock
💖 The walk of glory
👣 The lunacy purge
👣 The aurora hunters
👣 The human defibrillator
👣 The swallowed pearl
🎳 She is the medicine
⭐️ The braingasm
Lyrics
We hold a prayer for the Earth
For the ones yet to come
May you walk in beauty
And remember your song
Agency
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
👣 The gag removed
👣 The truth shrills
🎳 The murdered Pollyanna
⭐️ Jane, let go!
👣 The Madventure invincibility
👣 The antigravity training
🧠 Her Rage
💖 The Room
👣 The rage burial
⭐️ The non-playable characters
👣 The auto-vomit
Lyrics
Can you feel the fire
Runnin' through your veins?
Now you're burning brighter
Don't look away
Shout out to the legends
Rising from the wreckage
Wholeness
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️
👣 The labyrinth grip
🧠 The 98 lives
💖 The stolen youth
👣 The sacred solitude
🎳 Yagé Love
👣 The galaxy in her hips
💖 The Heroine's Journey
🧠 The Hero's Journey
⭐️ The Liberator's Journey
🎳 My Tree of Life
🧠 The shitshow birth chart
⭐️ The Earth School fine print
Lyrics
We are the warriors, who learned to love the pain
We come from different places but have the same name
'Cause we were born for this
Self-expression
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️
⭐️ The consulate circus chimp
🧠 The same essay
🧠 The butterfly labyrinth
🧠 The Computer Teacher
💖 The Web Developer
👣 The Industrial Machinist
🎳 The Banking Officer
🧠 The Aerospace Engineer
🧠 The Energy Researcher
🧠 The Systems Designer
🎳 The Intl Aid Worker
👣 The Global E-strategist
🎳 The UN Consultant
💖 The Web Design Agency
🎳 The Success Coach
🧠 The Wealth Mentor
👣 The Aerial Yoga Studio
💖 The Psychotherapist
⭐️ The Spiritual Guide
Lyrics
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
I just want to live while I'm alive
Equality
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
🧠 The rice paddy peasant
👣 The anxiety placenta
💖 The surrogate apology
💖 The frozen ants
💖 The World Expo savages
👣 The chooner fish
⭐️ The higher harmonics
👣 The weightless turtles
👣 Boutique Luxury
👣 The baby bird
🧠 The Mr. Rogers vest
👣 The boutique luxury
🧠 Oh, the parentals
Lyrics
On the run from a country where they put you in prison
For being a woman and speaking your mind
They said I would never make it
But I was built to break the mold
Free Will
🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️
💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️
👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️
⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️
💖 The Alhambra segway
👣 The shaking smoothie
🧠 The busyness tracker
👣 The digital nomad
👣 The 16 countries in 16 weeks
👣 The 52 green lights
🎳 The warm leggings
👣 The pillow fort
🎳 The awe antidote
⭐️ Go, go now!
🎳 The story doves
🧠 The steadfast tortoise
🧠 The 25 Faces of Fear
Lyrics
I'm like a titan that's risin'
Oh, just you watch
I'm steppin' into fate
There is no time to waste
I've got that lightnin' inside me
Grieve. For everything you ever lost will come back to you in another form.
– Ellany Lea
Me • Hey.
The Universe • Sup.
Me • So. In short. For me to live safely and freely on Earth, I have to reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Children. Then kintsugi them back together again, so they maturate into adults?
The Universe • Yep.
Me • And then, I have to reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Adults. Then kintsugi them back together again, so they maturate into healthy adults?
The Universe • Yep.
Me • And once I'm done all that, I just have to:
- Integrate the healthy adults into Moon Dragon (yin) and Fire Phoenix (yang)
- Integrate the Moon Dragon and Fire Phoenix into one whole Ouroboros (yin-yang)
- Integrate the Polymath and Freedompreneur into the Liberator
- Teach and train the Liberator to free the Ouroboros from its Wheel of Karma
- ... to just be me.
The Universe • Yep.
Me • Just that?
The Universe • Just that.
Me • No biggie?
The Universe • No biggie.
(First Published Oct 1, 2018)
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