Opportestiny

   

A Freedompreneur's Stories of Opportunity + Test + Destiny


Work in Progress   |   Last Updated • Sep 25, 2023




Ellany-Lea-Writer-Pen

Every other day, I am haunted by the question,

How am I even still alive...
no less thriving?

If I wrote my whole story to my whole self, could I be freed from the haunting?


Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery
with seams of gold.

 

 

 

 

It honours each fragment's story and
breaths new life into a once broken, now original, vessel.

 

The 4 Stages of Opportestiny ⤵︎


Stage 1 • The Smashing

The smashing of my 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults

SMASHING STORIES



Stage 2 • The Healing

The kintsugi of my 12 Wounded Children

Healing Stories



Stage 3 • The Reclamation

The kintsugi of my 12 Wounded Adults

Reclamation Stories



Stage 4 • The Integration

"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."

INTEGRATION STORIES



A Grief Autopsy

A decimating examination of everything I ever lost... or never had in the first place.

Worth

INSUFFICIENT CHILD

Childhood

SKYHOLDER

Safety

UNSAFE CHILD

Innocence

DISPOSABLE CHILD

Humane-ness

OVERACHIEVER

Self-trust

TOO MUCH CHILD

Nurturance

ABANDONED CHILD

Identity

EMPATH

Free will

FREEDOMPRENEUR

Deservingness

DEPRIVED CHILD

Will to live

DEATH WISHER

Self-esteem

FAILURE CHILD

Belonging

FREAK CHILD

Appetite
for life

BURDEN CHILD

Agency

FIRE PHOENIX

Genius

MYSTIC

Self-compassion

POWERLESS CHILD

Sacredness

WILD WOMAN

Validity

MISTAKE CHILD

Relevance

INVISIBLE CHILD

Radiance

MOON DRAGON

Equality

IMMIGRANT

Wholeness

OUROBOROS












 

Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.

– Susan Cain





This is my story.

This is my creative offering.

This is my Opportestiny.


Ellany Lea - Spiritual Intelligence 4 Types of Knowing







 

 

Stage 1A • The Smashing



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opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-invisible   opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-too-much   opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-unsafe   opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-freak   opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-mistake   opportestiny-ebook-cover-child-deprived

 

Smashing Stories

Insufficient Child


Primary Smashing

The missing 1% Chronic T


Secondary Smashings

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Nutella knife Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Worth
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Parentified Child
Single Parent
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ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am not enough.
I am unlovable.
I am insufficient.
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OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all parental deficiencies
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TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
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STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to parentification
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Skyholder

Smashing Stories

Disposable Child


Primary Smashing

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Innocence
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Girl
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I have no value.
I am disposable.
I am worthless.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all gender inequality
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be born
(... did I?)
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Wild Woman

Smashing Stories

Failure Child


Primary Smashing

The cheque kneeling Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

The Nutella knife Small t

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T

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LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-esteem
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
ATM Machine
Money Tree
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I can’t win.
I am a failure.
I am a mess.
icon-overcompensation-flight-skyholder
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all parental and immigrant handicaps
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to objectification and exploitation
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Overachiever

Smashing Stories

Burden Child


Primary Smashing

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The smashed car windows Small t

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Appetite for life

icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Another Mouth to Feed
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am a bother.
It’s best if I’m gone.
I am a burden.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human scarcity
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to intergenerational scarcity
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Death Wisher

Smashing Stories

Powerless Child


Primary Smashing

The basement gang Big T


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3

The greatness cancellation Big T

The neck yank Big TPre 3

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small tSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-compassion
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Victim
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am helpless.
I am hopeless.
I am powerless.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human cruelty
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to siphon and suppression
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Mystic

Smashing Stories

Abandoned Child


Primary Smashing

The Y brass knob Big TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The neck yank Big TPre 3

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The greatness cancellation Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Nurturance
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Starseed
Collateral Damage
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am alone.
I am not wanted.
I am abandoned.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human primitiveness
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to dumpage on Earth
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Empath

Smashing Stories

Too Much Child


Primary Smashing

The greatness cancellation Big T


Secondary Smashings

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-trust
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Gifted Child
Target Practice
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am crazy.
I am too intense.
I am too much.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human ignorance
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to bullying and smart shaming
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Fire Phoenix

Smashing Stories

Invisible Child


Primary Smashing

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The greatness cancellation Big T

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The name massacre (grade 4-6) Chronic T

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Relevance
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Wallpaper
Blind Spot
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I don’t matter.
I am not important.
I am invisible.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human unconsciousness
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to insignificance
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Moon Dragon

Smashing Stories

Unsafe Child


Primary Smashing

The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3


Secondary Smashings

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The greatness cancellation Big T

The smashed car windows Small t

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The AA basement Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Safety
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sitting Duck
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am not safe.
I am unprotected.
I am unsafe.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human betrayal
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSES
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to soul murder
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Ouroboros

Smashing Stories

Freak Child


Primary Smashing

The 7 schools in 9 yearsChronic TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The phone tape guts Complex TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The greatness cancellation Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Belonging
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Black Sheep
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am a reject.
I don’t belong.
I am a freak.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human fracture
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSES
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to ostracization
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Polymath

Smashing Stories

Mistake Child


Primary Smashing

The machete target practice Complex TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The greatness cancellation Big T

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The smashed car windows Small t

The name massacre bullies (grade 4-6) Chronic T

The Balkans bullies (grade 7) Chronic T

The toilet water bullies (grade 8-11) Chronic T

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The defective thing Complex TPre 6

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The Nutella knife Small t

The tearless Guan Yin Small t

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Validity
icon-child-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Scapegoat
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am bad.
I am wrong.
I am a mistake.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human contempt
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be blame landfill
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSES
Primary • Fawn
Secondary • Flight
icon-broken-adult
ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Immigrant

Smashing Stories

Deprived Child


Primary Smashing  

The "no fishies for you" Small tPre 6


Secondary Smashings

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The YWCA brass knob Big TPre 3

The vanishing yellow school bus Big TPre 6

The Eden crib expulsion Small tPre 6

The sledgehammer hallway holes Big TPre 6

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The river dump girl Complex TPre 3

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Deservingness
icon-child-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Alley Dog
icon-brainwash-sponge
ABSORBED IDENTITIES
I am poor.
I lack.
I am deprived.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate for all human greed
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to poverty
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSES
Primary • Flight
Secondary • Fawn
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ADULT EQUIVALENT
The Freedompreneur








 


I wish we didn't have to spend our entire adulthood recovering from our childhood.

– Ellany Lea



 





 

 

Stage 1B • The Smashing



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opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-moon-dragon   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-fire-phoenix   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-ouroboros   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-polymath   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-immigrant   opportestiny-ebook-cover-adult-freedompreneur


Smashing Stories

Skyholder


Primary Smashing

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 16 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSDSeCONDARY T

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Childhood
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Atlas
Slave Captain
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
All will die if I drop the sky.
It’s all on me alone forever.
I am crushed but no one cares.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by becoming everything to everyone all the time
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to enslavement and siphon
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Insufficient Child

Smashing Stories

Wild Woman


Primary Smashing

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3 💰 PTSD

The greatness cancellation Big T

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The AA basement Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The Chintok harassment Chronic T

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Sacredness
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sheath
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
My only value is in my utility to others.
I must deny my wild, my instincts.
I must stay small, silent and sweet.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by becoming the best white man I can be
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to siphon and pillaging
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Disposable Child

Smashing Stories

Overachiever


Primary Smashing

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 19 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The greatness cancellation Big T

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Humane-ness
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sisyphus
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am not superhuman enough.
I must please + perform + produce + perfect or perish.
I am valid only if I achieve the impossible.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by working harder than a trekker up Everest during an Avalanche
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to emaciating overcompensation
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Failure Child

Smashing Stories

Death Wisher


Primary Smashing

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 11 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The AA basement Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

The baby co-parent Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Will to live
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Call of the Void
"SI"
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am nothing.
There is no point.
Earth is hell.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by joining the walking dead
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be a Homo sapiens
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Burden Child

Smashing Stories

Mystic


Primary Smashing

The steel toe boots Big T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 29 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Genius
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Chiron
Sagittarius
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am to bare the pain for humanity.
“Conceal it, don’t feel it, don’t let it show.”
I am banished underground.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by inducing soul coma, heart armour, and body cloister
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSES
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to witch burning
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Powerless Child

Smashing Stories

Empath


Primary Smashing

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 22 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The AA basement Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The sociopath matchbox Big T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small TSeCONDARY T

The genocide skulls Small TSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Identity
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Martyr
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am no one.
I am now allowed to exist.
I must disappear to avoid persecution.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by throwing myself on the fire to keep them warm
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be sacrificial lamb
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Abandoned Child

Smashing Stories

Moon Dragon


Primary Smashing

The plugs in the socket Complex TPre 6💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The dump trucks paralysis Big T💰 PTSD

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The AA basement Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The ATM dispenser Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The Gulf mass graves Small tSecondary T

The genocide skulls Small tSecondary T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Radiance
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sacred Yin
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
It’s a sin to shine.
It's my job to vanish into the background.
I must shut down my Knowing.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by fading to extinction
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to oppression
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Invisible Child

Smashing Stories

Fire Phoenix


Primary Smashing

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 11 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The AA basement Big T

The steel toe boots Big T

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T💰 PTSD

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD

The co-signer con Big T💰 PTSD

The blue screen of death Chronic T💰 PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T💰 PTSD

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Agency
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Sacred Yang
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am a danger to others.
I must live in isolation.
I must fear and shut down my power.
icon-overcompensation-freeze
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by annihilating self
icon-stress-response-freeze
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to persecution and human assholery
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Too Much Child

Smashing Stories

Ouroboros


Primary Smashing

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3$ PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 37 smashings)

The launch funeral Big T$ PTSD

The iPhone watery grave Big T$ PTSD

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Wholeness
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Wheel of Karma
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am the broken one.
I must kamikaze myself.
I am trapped here forever.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by re-incarnating non-stop at hyper speed to save humanity
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-fawn
STRESS RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to reincarnation
(... did I?)
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Unsafe Child

Smashing Stories

Polymath


Primary Smashing

The skeletal lone wolf Complex TPre 6


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 12 smashings)

The stolen Pentium tower Big T

The iPhone watery grave Big T$ PTSD

The $0.99 ramen Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6$ PTSD

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Self-expression 

icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Gifted Adult
PTG Brain
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
Only specialists have value.
Generalists are pariahs.
The DWG way is the only way.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by scurrying on the fringes of society
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUME RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSE
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to gag orders
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Freak Child

Smashing Stories

Immigrant


Primary Smashing

The nausea crossing handler Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The bracelet in the diaper Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T

The unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3SeCONDARY T


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 21 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3$ PTSD

The potato fingers Big T

The someone you know Big T

The AA basement Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T$ PTSD

The co-signer con Big T$ PTSD

The 7 schools in 9 years Chronic TPre 6

The narcissist ballet tickets Chronic T$ PTSD

The sociopath shush netting Chronic T

The sociopath matchbox Big T$ PTSD

The disposable air filter Complex TPre 6$ PTSDSeCONDARY T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Equality
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Prey
Cheap Labor
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I must make up for my “Unacceptable”.
I am here to clean toilets and shut up.
I am a doormat for the DWG to wipe their feet on.
icon-overcompensation-fawn
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by doormat-ing to The Man
icon-stress-response-fawn
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Fawn
icon-stress-response-flight
STRESS RESPONSE
Flight
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to be hunted
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Mistake Child

Smashing Stories

Freedompreneur


Primary Smashing

The launch funeral Big T💰 PTSD


Secondary Smashings

(Including its Wounded Child Equivalent's 20 smashings)

The spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3💰 PTSD

The greatness cancellation Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T💰 PTSD

The steel toe boots Big T

icon-smashed-grief
LOSS / DEATH OF
Free will
icon-broken-mirror-aka
ALSO KNOWN AS
Rebel
icon-brainwashing-conditioned
CONDITIONED BELIEFS
I am but a cog on the factory floor.
I owe my time and talents to the DWG.
I must rat race at a desk until I croak.
icon-overcompensation-flight
OVERCOMPENSATION
I must overcompensate by being a flawless factory production line
icon-stress-response-flight
TRAUMA RESPONSE
Flight
icon-stress-response-freeze
STRESS RESPONSES
Freeze
icon-girl-rag-doll-wounded
STRIPPED CONSENT
I did not consent to DWG dictatorship
icon-broken-child
CHILD EQUIVALENT
The Deprived Child



 



The first forty years of childhood are the hardest.

– Gas Station T-shirt







 




Grief Autopsy Report

Cause of Death • Human cruelty and dumbassery

Coroner's Observation(s)

Deceased repeatedly treated as object (ATM, Sheath), animal (Scapegoat, Sitting Duck, Alley Dog), and mythological DWG (Atlas, Sisyphus)

Coroner's Remark(s)
Incarnation to Earth was a bad, bad idea

7
Small t's

SMALL T

From developmental neglect or arrest traumas
15.5
Big T's

BIG T

From one-time blunt force traumas
13
Chronic T's

CHRONIC T

From repeat or prolonged traumas
11
Complex T's

COMPLEX T

From multiple overlapping small, big and chronic traumas
9
Secondary PTSD

SECONDARY T

From secondary, intergenerational or inherited traumas
10
Pre 3 years old PTSD

PRE 3

From "you're pretty much f*cked for life" traumas
12
Pre 6 years old PTSD

PRE 6

From "you're f*cked for a long time, but there's hope" traumas
14.5
Financial PTSD

💰 PTSD

From chronic financial under-support and deprivation
15
Freeze Archetypes
It's a shocker I get out of bed in the morning! 🙈
15
Flight Archetypes
It's a shocker I don't live permanently in a hospital. 🙊
18
Fawn Archetypes
It's a shocker I even have a self left! 🙉
0
Fight Archetypes
What can I say... I am not a fighter.

* This report does not include aaaaaall the daily physical, emotional, psychological and spiritual pain and microaggressions that don't "count" as trauma. Sigh.

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How?!

How am I even still alive...
no less thriving? ⤵︎

Thriving Funhouse

131 Countries

10 Types of Freedom

16 Careers

🤯 Spiritual Quotient

Ageless Joy + Vitality

Fulfilling Freedom

And somehow...

0

BORN WITH

Zero male privilege
Zero white privilege
Zero trust fund
Zero family connections
Zero self-worth
Zero self-esteem

0

GREW UP WITH

Zero nurturance
Zero protection
Zero guidance
Zero athletics
Zero music
Zero arts

0

RAISED MYSELF WITH

Zero parental support
Zero partner to pay my bills
Zero financial aid
Zero inheritance
Zero divorce
Zero court alimony

0

SURVIVED WITH

Zero couch to have a
depression on
Zero person to nurse me
back to health
Zero partner to do life with
Zero coffee

0
Alcohol
Drugs
Rehab
Smoking

as a coping mechanisms
0
Financial Debt
Shopping Addiction
Bankruptcy
as a coping mechanisms
0
Eating Disorders
Institutionalization
Body Dysmorphia
Sex/"Love" Addiction

as a coping mechanisms
0
Gambling
Social Media Addictions
TV/Gaming Addictions
Criminal Record 

as a coping mechanisms

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How?!?!

The 4 Types of Knowing

By recollecting all 4 types of knowing, every loss was painstakingly kintsugi'ed back together again.

Mind-Knowing

🧠

(n.) Learned cognitive understanding, culminating in
knowledge

Heart-Knowing

💖

(n.) Felt emotional comprehension, culminating in
compassion

Body-Knowing

👣

(n.) Lived visceral
experience, culminating in
wisdom

Soul-Knowing

⭐️

(n.) Remembering of
universal truth, culminating in
illumination



 

 

 

 


Stage 2 • The Healing

  

HEALEDING (v.) healed, but ever healing...

 


 

 

 

 

Healeding

Worth

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Healing Stories

Insufficient Child

🧠 The lovability disk scratch

💖 The chest tattoo

💖 The leap into the unknown

💖 The 9 droplets

💖 The work ox

🧠 The shoulder intervention

🧠 The Wall of Greatness

🎳 The volcano lagoon

👣 The 4 flanks

💖 The mother famine

MY Anthem

Unstoppable

by Sia

Lyrics

I put my armor on, show you how strong I am
I'm a Porsche with no brakes
I don't need batteries to play

Healeding

Innocence

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Disposable Child

🧠 The pony bite

🧠 The innocence type

💖 The golden buzzers

💖 The heartbroken heartbreaker

🎳 The ruby bubble burst

💖 The duck duck poo

🧠 The movement of the heart

👣 The upside down monkey

⭐️ The dew drop curtwheel

💖 The play paddles

🧠 The scheduled spontaneity

🎳 She moves hearts

🧠 The unwelcome

🧠 The abandonment despair

MY Anthem

Queendom

by AURORA

Lyrics

The women will be my soldiers
With the weight of life on their shoulders
Drink until you've had enough
I'll drink from your hands
I will be your warrior
I will be your lamb

Healeding

Self-esteem

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Failure Child

💖 The 58min blackout

⭐️ The root curse

🧠 The letter to the Money Tree

🧠 The factory floor

🎳 The carpel tunnel shortcircuit

💖 The organ donor

💖 The strings cutting

👣 The binder handover

⭐️ The sky funeral

💖 The maid money

🧠 The Universal Declaration of Human Rights

MY Anthem

How Far I'll Go

by Auli'i Cravalho

Lyrics

I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water
No matter how hard I try
Every road leads back
To the place I know where I cannot go
Where I long to be

Healeding

Appetite for life

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Burden Child

👣 The ferris wheel pickup

💖 The 99 cent ramen

👣 The micro-sips

👣 The shawl

👣 The humanity barf

👣 The cost of life purge

🧠 The sand script

MY Anthem

The Seed

by AURORA

Lyrics

Suffocate me
So my tears can be rain
I will water the ground where I stand
So the flowers can grow back again
'Cause just like the seed
Everything wants to live

Healeding

Self-compassion

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Powerless Child

💖 The canaries in cole mines

🧠 The depressed chimps

👣 The multi-sensory vindication

👣 The bucket of self-hatred

🎳 The grief cork

👣 The Acroyoga base

💖 The shards and tar tower

🧠 The defunct receptors

💖 The Leslie love

💖 The air filters

👣 The funeral at the End of the World

MY Anthem

The Prayer

by Céline Dion, Andrea Bocelli

Lyrics

We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

Healeding

Nurturance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Abandoned Child

🧠 The zipline burp

💖 The delivery waiting room

💖 The spare rooms

👣 The gravesite hand

🧠 The Wounded Angel

💖 The Little Matchstick Girl

👣 The snake skin lick

💖 The little truck crew

⭐️ The Indigo Child

👣 The chest lean

👣 Lavender Fields rub

💖 Elliott's tears

👣 The Starseed squishy

MY Anthem

Ikinaide

by Koji Tamaki - Dimash Qudaibergen Cover

Lyrics

いつか心は いつか
遠いどこかで
みんな想い出になると
知らなくていいのに

Healeding

Relevance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Invisible Child

🧠 The handpicked intern

💖 The drawbridges down

🎳 The soil in my fingernails

💖 The friend's closet

👣 The Artist’s Way

💖 The coaxing out

👣 The throat chakra purge

💖 The adopted family

MY Anthem

What About Us

by Pink

Lyrics

We are billions of beautiful hearts
And you sold us down the river too far
We are children that need to be loved
Oh, what about love?

Healeding

Self-trust

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Healing Stories

Too Much Child

🧠 The not-friends

🧠 The "deepest fear" poem

⭐️ The Light of Love

🧠 The HSP and HSS cocktail

🧠 The black cat wax

👣 The death of the Restless

🧠 The autism spectrum client

🧠 The Gifted Adult

🧠 The smart shaming

💖 The forgiveness mantra

💖 The lost decades

👣 The creative aqueduct

MY Anthem

Titanium

by David Guetta, Sia

Lyrics

Shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall

Healeding

Safety

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Unsafe Child

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MY Anthem

Believer

by Imagine Dragons

Lyrics

I was choking in the crowd
Building my rain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
'til it broke open, and it rained down

Healeding

Belonging

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Freak Child

🧠 Pus in Boots

👣 The walk Home

💖 The Humpty Dumpty

👣 The Antigravity Skylabs

🧠 The sisterhood rain drops 

👣 The Odessa taxi

💖 The Dori shells

🎳 The Void

👣 The purging at both ends

⭐️ The re-membering of the sea

MY Anthem

This Is Me

by Keala Settle and The Greatest Showman Ensemble

Lyrics

But I won't let them break me down to dust
I know that there's a place for us
For we are glorious

Healeding

Validity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Mistake Child

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MY Anthem

Resurrection Lily

by 안예은 - Wan Yihwa Cover

Lyrics

다시 돌아올 수 없는 그 험한 길 위에
어찌하다 오르셨소
내가 가야만 했었던 그 험한 길 위에
그대가 왜 오르셨소?

Healeding

Deservingness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Healing Stories

Deprived Child

(Stories to be listed Sep 22)

MY Anthem

Vuela Con el Viento

by Ayla Schafer

Lyrics

Llévame con tus alas de luz
Águila, tráenos medicina
Del viento, del aire, de las estrellas, del sol
Brillando, me guía el camino






 


If you don't let your past die, it won't let you live.

– Ellany Lea
















Stage 3 • The Reclamation 

  

RECLAIMEDING • (v.) reclaimed, but ever reclaiming...







Reclaimeding

Childhood

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Skyholder

🎳 THE BIG THAW

💖 The silent hour

⭐️ The incinerator abdication

👣 The blanket lift

🎳 The Westerbeke bench

🧠 The unselfish self-care

🧠 The neglect trauma

🧠 The personal responsibility

💖 The single parent grief

⭐️ The ox cart dream

🧠 The capacity for joy

👣 The safari backseat

🧠 Mulan's stupid sword

MY Anthem

Let Me Fall

by Josh Groban

Lyrics

The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
Though the phoenix may or may not rise
I will dance so freely, holding on to no one

Reclaimeding

Sacredness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Reclamation Stories

Wild Woman

🎳 The spinal knot

⭐️ The apartment siege

🧠 The sewing machine

🧠 The disgust-o-meter

⭐️ The condo sale

💖 The dissident daughter

👣 The boxing gloves

🎳 The walking debt

💖 The conscious uncoupling

🧠 The Women Who Run with Wolves

👣 The patriarchy barf

⭐️ The husband maker

⭐️ The oppression merry-go-round

🧠 The inequality

💖 The pyjama pizzas, lone islands and big spoon

💖 The navy captain

MY Anthem

Revolution

by The Score

Lyrics

Can't let time keep passing me by
Run down what I've always been chasing
Black out every fear I've been facing
All my wolves, begin to howl
Wake me up, the time is now

Reclaimeding

Humanness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Overachiever

💔 The best eldest son

👣 The fields of gold

🧠 The PQ test

💖 Overachievers Anonymous

👣 The trophies in the garbage

💖 The pull over pride

👣 The perfectionist extraction

⭐️ The roasted butterfly

🎳 The zing Being

💖 The hyperachiever's forgiveness

🧠 The Human Design generator

MY Anthem

Hall of Fame

by The Script

Lyrics

You can go the distance, you can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be a hero, you could get the gold

Reclaimeding

Will to Live

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Death Wisher

⭐️ The Darwin Awards

💖 The mentor heart-ears

👣 The handgliding voice

🧠 The life boat

💖 The secret dove

⭐️ The end before the end

🎳 The comet in the body

🧠 The pain generator

🧠 The cat with 9 lives

👣 The Destroyer

⭐️ The spiritual clutch

MY Anthem

S.O.S. d'un terrien en détresse

by Daniel Balavoine - Dimash Qudaibergen Cover

Lyrics

Je crois capter des ondes
Venues d'un autre monde
J'ai jamais eu les pieds sur terre
Si jamais c'était plus beau
Plus beau vu d'en haut

Reclaimeding

Genius

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Mystic

👣 The mercy juicer

👣 The sacred peacock

👣 The chosen lightning bolt

⭐️ The tuning fork

⭐️ The Mystic Academy

🎳 The dissolving into Oneness

⭐️ The channel opening

👣 The vaccum vortex

🧠 The witch burning genes

🧠 The Boddhisatva

💖 The giant builder

⭐️ The Warrior Academy

🧠 The film strip

👣 The aurora lulluaby

🎳 The 5 clairs

💖 The Chiron crossfire

MY Anthem

Whatever It Takes

by Imagine Dragons

Lyrics

An epoxy to the world and the vision we've lost
I'm just a symbol to remind you that there's more to see
And yet a masterpiece, and yet I'm half-diseased

Reclaimeding

Identity

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Reclamation Stories

Empath

👣 The samurai knee slice

🧠 The client migraine attack

⭐️ The portals clearing

👣 The Seoul train

🧠 The castle crest

🧠 The ungloved Rogue

👣 The martyr curse purge

🧠 The 7 things white people taught me

💖 The Oxford ninja

⭐️ The even playing field

⭐️ Unfusing Cora

🧠 The siddhis

💖 The Cerebro helmet

MY Anthem

I'm So Spiritual

by Charlotte Donachie

Lyrics

And I do 5Rhythms
My child's high vibe, it's not autism
I'm more spiritual than you
I've got a drum and a fuck off gong
And a Spotify playlist called Medicine Songs

Reclaimeding

Radiance

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Moon Dragon

⭐️ The peace locomotive

💖 The cuddle buddy

⭐️ The radiant sunset

⭐️ The original name

👣 The horse dismount

👣 The peeled sock

💖 The walk of glory

👣 The lunacy purge

👣 The aurora hunters

👣 The human defibrillator

👣 The swallowed pearl

🎳 She is the medicine

⭐️ The braingasm

MY Anthem

Blessed We Are

by Peia

Lyrics

We hold a prayer for the Earth
For the ones yet to come
May you walk in beauty
And remember your song

Reclaimeding

Agency

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Fire Phoenix

👣 The gag removed

👣 The truth shrills

🎳 The murdered Pollyanna

⭐️ Jane, let go!

👣 The Madventure invincibility

👣 The antigravity training

🧠 Her Rage

💖 The Room

👣 The rage burial

⭐️ The non-playable characters

👣 The auto-vomit

MY Anthem

Let's Do This

by Outskrts

Lyrics

Can you feel the fire
Runnin' through your veins?
Now you're burning brighter
Don't look away
Shout out to the legends
Rising from the wreckage

Reclaimeding

Wholeness

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️

Reclamation Stories

Ouroboros

👣 The labyrinth grip

🧠 The 98 lives

💖 The stolen youth

👣 The sacred solitude

🎳 Yagé Love

👣 The galaxy in her hips

💖 The Heroine's Journey

🧠 The Hero's Journey

⭐️ The Liberator's Journey

🎳 My Tree of Life

🧠 The shitshow birth chart

⭐️ The Earth School fine print

MY Anthem

Born For This

by The Score

Lyrics

We are the warriors, who learned to love the pain
We come from different places but have the same name
'Cause we were born for this

Reclaimeding

Self-expression

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Polymath

MY Anthem

It's My Life

by Bon Jovi

Lyrics

And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
I just want to live while I'm alive

Reclaimeding

Equality

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Immigrant

🧠 The rice paddy peasant

👣 The anxiety placenta

💖 The surrogate apology

💖 The frozen ants

💖 The World Expo savages

👣 The chooner fish

⭐️ The higher harmonics

👣 The weightless turtles

👣 Boutique Luxury

👣 The baby bird

🧠 The Mr. Rogers vest

👣 The boutique luxury

🧠 Oh, the parentals

MY Anthem

Underdog

by Alicia Keys

Lyrics

On the run from a country where they put you in prison
For being a woman and speaking your mind
They said I would never make it
But I was built to break the mold

Reclaimeding

Free Will

🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 🧠 ⚪️

💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 💖 ⚪️ ⚪️

👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 👣 ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️ ⚪️

⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ ⚪️ ⚪️

Reclamation Stories

Freedompreneur

💖 The Alhambra segway

👣 The shaking smoothie

🧠 The busyness tracker

👣 The digital nomad

👣 The 16 countries in 16 weeks

👣 The 52 green lights

🎳 The warm leggings

👣 The pillow fort

🎳 The awe antidote

⭐️ Go, go now!

🎳 The story doves

🧠 The steadfast tortoise

🧠 The 25 Faces of Fear

MY Anthem

Legends Are Made

by Sam Tinnesz

Lyrics

I'm like a titan that's risin'
Oh, just you watch
I'm steppin' into fate
There is no time to waste
I've got that lightnin' inside me




Grieve. For everything you ever lost will come back to you in another form.

– Ellany Lea




















Stage 4 • The Integration



 


 




Me • Hey.

The Universe • Sup.

Me • So. In short. For me to live safely and freely on Earth, I have to reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Children. Then kintsugi them back together again, so they maturate into adults?

The Universe • Yep.

EL-Opportestiny-Integration_chart-EL-stage2

Me • And then, I have to reclaim all the 🧠 💖 👣 ⭐️ knowings for each of my 12 Wounded Adults. Then kintsugi them back together again, so they maturate into healthy adults?

The Universe • Yep.

EL-Opportestiny-Integration_chart-EL-stage3

Me • And once I'm done all that, I just have to:

  • Integrate the healthy adults into Moon Dragon (yin) and Fire Phoenix (yang)
  • Integrate the Moon Dragon and Fire Phoenix into one whole Ouroboros (yin-yang)
  • Integrate the Polymath and Freedompreneur into the Liberator
  • Teach and train the Liberator to free the Ouroboros from its Wheel of Karma
  • ... to just be me.

The Universe • Yep.

Me • Just that?

The Universe • Just that.

Me • No biggie?

The Universe • No biggie.

EL-Opportestiny-Integration_chart-EL-stage4

(First Published Oct 1, 2018)



 

 

 

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