The Pillow Fort • How I Gained Time Abundance and Freedom

This one time, at one of my entheogen retreats, I spent the entire afternoon gathering pillows and blankets from all over the retreat centre, the way a sparrow gathers twigs and leaves to build a nest. 

At the time, I didn't know it was because I had The Unsafe Child archetype running the show for my entire life. 

That night, with all my loot, I build a giant pillow fort that fellow participants eyed with envy. How they would love to dive right in and take up residence. 😛✌️It was squishy and cozy and squishy and safe. That's right, I'm a pillow fort expert... because I've never felt safe a day in my life. Booya! 🎉

Somehow, my fort turned into a volcano. And somehow, with Ayahuasca coursing in my veins, I impaled myself on that volcano. The back of my heart chakra covered the volcano opening and the rest of me splayed out like a jelly-starfish. You needed to be there.

Then somehow, the pillows must have given way because I found myself slipping sideways off the volcano in slooooooooooooooooooow motion. I sensed every thread of every pillow as I slid down them. You think a snail is slow, this was 1,000,000 to the power 1,000,000 slower.

I knew this would take a looooooooooooooooooong time. There was nothing I could do. So I decided to amuse myself, inside my own mind, by impersonating the Wicked Witch of the West in her "I'm meeeeeelting" scene.

bitmoji-dali-warp-clockI'd hear myself languish, "I’m sliiiiiiiiiiding." Then I cackled a bit. Then I burst out laughing, all with my inside voice, of course. This went on for a while, on repeat. I laughed myself into a tizzy, "I’m sliiiiiiiiiiding." Gosh, I had so much fun!

Once two-thirds of my body slid onto the cold marble floor, I heard myself imitate, “I’m meeeeeeelting”. Then I burst into laughter again. "God, I'm so funny," I thought, "I amuse myself to no end!"

Eventually, when my entire body had somehow made its way down the volcano, flat onto the marble floor, I liquefied. Then that liquid flooooooowed into the fireplace, but did not put out the fire.

Full Set • 4 Levels of Knowing

I didn't even attempt to rationally explain it. I knew better by now.

It was about 9 months later, when my friend J and I were talking about time freedom, that these words fell out of my mouth, "I can't yet masterfully bend time, but I can definitely slow it down to a halt." (I mean, who says stuff like this 😜)

Then boom, I realized the significance of this slow motion experience.

You see, my mind knew all about time freedom. It even mastered it through the Busyness Tracker, which is probably the top tool my clients rave about. It knew that herding time blocks like sheep would eventually free up my time 🐑 🐑 🐑.

My heart knew immense joy, traveling 131 countries, eating and playing with friends, working 2-3 days a week, 3 weeks a month, and 6-9 months a year, all while earning a six-figure plus income. It knew that there was an abundance of time.

Thanks to 3 back-to-back Kambo sessions, even my soul knew about The Void, that there is no time. It knew that I could never run out of time.

But the missing piece, was the body knowing, the body experience of time slowing to such a halt that there was an infinite amount of time. 

Now with this full set [link] of mind, heart, body, and soul knowing, I was time freed. I was truly, deeply, madly free from time. I now gained the agility to tap into that time-infinity, stretch it, slow it down to a halt like I did sliiiiiiding down that pillow fort volcano.

Then by the time I look up, I did 6 hours of juicy, juicy creative work, but only 2 hours passed on Earth-School. Who knew?!? It wasn't even a superpower I was gunning for. I just wanted to be free. And then this came along to create a full set of knowing!

Time scarcity, you can RIP.


What would you give to have time abundance?
What would you be willing to become to be free from time?

Live fierce and free,

xo, Ella



Having navigated 131 countries, 87 emotions, 46.5 traumas, and 16 careers, Ellany Lea inspires and guides phoenixes, overachievers, entrepreneurs and wayshowers to live fierce, fulfilled and free.