To suckle the peace of karmic completion

My Opportestiny™

My Adventures of Opportunity + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Destiny

Ellany Lea - Phoenix Whisperer

Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.

– SUSAN CAIN

This is my creative offering...

Opportestiny™

3 MIN TEASER

4 Types of Knowing

28 MIN TALK

Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery with seams of gold.

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It honors each fragment's story and breathes new life into a once broken, now original vessel.

4 Stages of Opportestiny™

This is a story of human kintsugi, of mending my Humpty Dumpty self back together again to suckle the nectar of karmic completion. Craughing guaranteed.

STAGE 1

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The Naming

Name all 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults

STAGE 2

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The Healing

Heal all 4 Types of Knowing to kintsugi my 12 Wounded Children

STAGE 3

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The Reclamation

Reclaim all 4 Types of Knowing to kintsugi my 12 Wounded Adults

STAGE 4

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The Integration

"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."

Mind-Knowing

🧠

Learned conceptual understanding

Heart-Knowing

💖

Felt emotional comprehension

Body-Knowing

👣

Lived visceral experience

Soul-Knowing

⭐️

Re-membered universal truth

Only in the fever of creation could she recreate her own lost life.

– Anaïs Nin

This was my lost life...

An excruciating examination of decimation, of everything I ever lost... or never even had in the first place.

+ 12 Universal Smashings • Loss of Peace, Time, Joy, Prosperity, Freedom, Trust in goodness of Life, Trust in the Sapiens, Needs, Right to feel, Ability to emote, Embodiment, Thriving

Grief Autopsy Report

7

Small T's

Small t

From developmental arrest and/or neglect traumas

16.5

Big T's

Big T

From acute and/or event-based traumas

10

Chronic T's

Chronic T

From repeated and/or prolonged traumas

13

Complex T's

Complex T

From comorbidity of Small, Big and Chronic traumas

9

Intergen T's

Small t

From intergenerational, inherited and/or secondary traumas

11

Pre 6 years old T's

Pre 6

From "you're f*cked for a long time, but there's hope" traumas

10

Pre 3 years old T's

Pre 3

From "you're scared for life, but not f*cked for life" traumas

14.5

Money T's

Money T

From chronic financial poverty, deprivation and/or under-support

CAUSE OF DEATH

Human curelty, stunting,  and dumbassery

MANNER OF DEATH

Chronically treated as object*, animal†, and culprit‡

* ATM, sheath, doormat, machete target
† Scapegoat, sacrificial lamb, alley dog, sitting duck
‡ Atlas, Sisyphus

CORONER'S REMARKS

Incarnation to Earth was a bad, bad idea

Note • Report does not include day-to-day micro-aggressions and micro-assaults that don't "count" as traumas. Sigh.

Grieve. Thoroughly. Anything you lose comes round in another form.

– Rumi /  Altered by Ellany Lea /

Alchemy of Grief into Glory

This is what came round in my other form... all self funded, zero loans, zero credit cards. ⤵︎

131 Countries

Exquisite Fulfillment

Spiritual Intelligence

Ageless Joy + Vitality

10 Types of Freedom

16 Career Reinventions

Woes and Zeros

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On odd days, I wake up wondering, "How am I even still alive, no less at peace in joy?" On even days, I wake up grunting, "Aww crap. Still here."

Given a history of woes and zeroes, if I wrote my whole story to my whole Self, could I be freed from this koan?

Woes

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ME/CFS

CPTSD

CIRS

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MDD

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BPI

Woes

SOS

EDS/PE

4S

MCAS

icon-disorder-GAD

GAD

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PE

Woes

OCD

POTS

ARDS

MCS

CTD

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WAD

Zeros

0

Alcohol

0

Coffee

0

Inpatient

0

"Love"/Sex Addiction

0

Born with

0 white privilege
0 male privilege
0 connections
0 inheritance
0 trust fund
0 business DNA

Zeros

0

Drugs

0

Smoking

0

Outpatient

0

Shopping/Tech Addiction

0

Grew Up with

0 help raising parents + siblings
0 guidance
0 protection
0 nurturance
0 music
0 athletics
0 person to have my back

Zeros

0

Rx pharma

0

Eating Disorder

0

Divorce

0

Police Record

0

Survived with

0 financial aid
0 parent to pay for college
0 partner to cover my bills
0 alimony
0 court settlement
0 person to nurse me back to health

There is no greater agony than
bearing an untold story inside you.

– Maya Angelou

STAGE 1

The Naming

of 12 Wounded Children

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Insufficient Child

Absorbed Identities

I am not enough.
I am a debt.
I am spare parts.

also known as

Parentified Child

loss / death of

Innocence

Grew Up Into

The Skyholder

Primary Smashing Story

Missing 1% Chronic T

Secondary Smashing Stories

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3 Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3 Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all adult deficiencies.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to parentification.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Disposable Child

Absorbed Identities

I am worthless.
I am garbage.
I am unlovable.

also known as

Garbage Girl

loss / death of

Worth

Grew Up Into

The Wild Woman

Primary Smashing Story

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Secondary Smashing Stories

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6

Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3 Intergen T

Potato fingers Big T

Someone you know Big T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all gender inequality.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Fawn

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to being born on Earth.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Failure Child

Absorbed Identities

I don't do enough.
I am incompetent.
I can't win.

also known as

Money Tree
ATM Dispenser

loss / death of

Self-esteem

Grew Up Into

The Overachiever

Primary Smashing Story

Cheque kneeling Chronic T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human stunting.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to objectification and exploitation.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Burden Child

Absorbed Identities

I am too needy.
I am a bother.
It's best if I'm gone.

also known as

Another Mouth to Feed

loss / death of

Appetite for life

Grew Up Into

The Death Wisher

Primary Smashing Story

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Garbage bag windows Small t

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human scarcity.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to intergenerational poverty.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Powerless Child

Absorbed Identities

I am helpless.
I am unsupported.
I am hopeless.

also known as

Victim

loss / death of

Self-compassion

Grew Up Into

The Mystic

Primary Smashing Story

Disposable canary Complex T

Secondary Smashing Stories

Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3

Greatness cancellation Big T

Neck yank Big T Pre 3

YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Stolen Pentium Big T

Potato fingers Big T

Someone you know Big T

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6

Chintok name massacre Chronic T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Shush net Chronic T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human cruelty.

Stress Response

Freeze

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to suppression and siphon.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Abandoned Child

Absorbed Identities

I am unwanted.
I am alone.
I am dumped.

also known as

Orphan
Starseed

loss / death of

Nurturance

Grew Up Into

The Empath

Primary Smashing Story

Crib expulsion Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Neck yank Big T Pre 3

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Greatness cancellation Big T

Potato fingers Big T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human primitiveness.

Stress Response

Freeze

Trauma Response

Fawn

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to dumpage on Earth.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Invisible Child

Absorbed Identities

I don't matter.
I am not important.
I am irrelevant.

also known as

Wallpaper

loss / death of

Relevance

Grew Up Into

The Moon Dragon

Primary Smashing Story

Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Greatness cancellation Big T

Stolen Pentium Big T

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Chintok name massacre Chronic T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human unconsciousness.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to insignificance.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Too Much Child

Absorbed Identities

I am too intense.
I am too difficult.
I am crazy.

also known as

Gifted Child
Target Practice

loss / death of

Self-trust

Grew Up Into

The Fire Phoenix

Primary Smashing Story

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Secondary Smashing Stories

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Greatness cancellation Big T

Stolen Pentium Big T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human ignorance.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to bullying and smart shaming.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

The Unsafe Child

Absorbed Identities

I am unprotected.
I am in danger.
I am unsafe.

also known as

Sitting Duck

loss / death of

Safety

Grew Up Into

The Ouroboros

Primary Smashing Story

Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3

Secondary Smashing Stories

YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Potato fingers Big T

Someone you know Big T

Greatness cancellation Big T

Garbage bag windows Small t

Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6

Stolen Pentium Big T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T 💰 PTSD

Basement gang Big T

Steel toe boots Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T 💰 PTSD

Co-signer con Big T 💰 PTSD

9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6

Chintok name massacre Chronic T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T 💰 PTSD

Shush net Chronic T

Blue screen of death Chronic T 💰 PTSD

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human betrayal.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to soul murder.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Freak Child

Absorbed Identities

I am too different.
I don't belong.
I am a reject.

also known as

Black Sheep

loss / death of

Belonging

Grew Up Into

The Polymath

Primary Smashing Story

9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Phone tape guts Big TPre 3Intergen T

Vanishing school bus Big TPre 6

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Greatness cancellation Big T

Launch funeral Big TMoney T

Chintok name massacre Chronic T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Toilet water bullies Chronic T

Spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3Money T

Defective thing Complex TPre 6

Nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human fracture.

Stress Response

Freeze

Trauma Response

Fawn

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to stracization.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Mistake Child

Absorbed Identities

I am invalid.
I am wrong.
I am unacceptable.

also known as

Scapegoat
Sinner

loss / death of

Validity

Grew Up Into

The Immigrant

Primary Smashing Story

Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Greatness cancellation Big T

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Garbage bag windows Small t

Chintok name massacre Chronic T

Balkans bullies Chronic T

Toilet water bullies hronic T

Stolen Pentium Big T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Defective thing Complex T Pre 6

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human smallness.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Fawn

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to be blame landfill.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Deprived Child

Absorbed Identities

I don't have.
I am poor.
I am siphoned.

also known as

Alley Dog

loss / death of

Deservingness

Grew Up Into

The Freedompreneur

Primary Smashing Story

No fishies for you Small t Pre 6

Secondary Smashing Stories

Co-signer con Big T Money T

YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3

Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6

Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6

Hallway holes Big T Pre 6

Stolen Pentium Big T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

iPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

River dump girl Complex T Pre 3

Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for all human greed.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to WWII refugee displacement.

The first forty years of childhood are the hardest.

STAGE 1

The Naming

of 12 Wounded Adults

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Skyholder

Conditioned Identities

All will die if I drop the sky.
It's all on me forever.
I am crushed but no one cares.

also known as

Atlas
Single Parent
Slave Captain

loss / death of

Childhood

Grew Up From

The Insufficient Child

Primary Smashing Story

iPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Insufficient Child's smashings)

Stolen Pentium Big T

Launch funeral Big T Money T Intergen T

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

Co-signer con Big T Money T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Shush net Chronic T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by being everything to everyone everytime.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to enslavement.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Wild Woman

Conditioned Identities

My only value is my utility to others.
Stay small, silent and sweet.
Suppress my instincts.

also known as

Sheath

loss / death of

Dignity

Grew Up From

The Disposable Child

Primary Smashing Story

Shush net Chronic T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Disposable Child's smashings)

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3 Money T

Greatness cancellation Big T

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Basement gang Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

Co-signer con Big T Money T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by becoming the best white man I can be.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to pillaging.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Overachiever

Conditioned Identities

I am only valid if I achieve the impossible.
Please + produce + perform + perfect, or perish.
I am never superhuman enough.

also known as

Sisyphus

loss / death of

Humaneness

Grew Up From

The Failure Child

Primary Smashing Story

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Failure Child's smashings)

Stolen Pentium Big T

Greatness cancellation Big T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

Co-signer con Big T Money T

Steel toe boots Big T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by climbing Everest during an avalanche.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Flight

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to being self-emaciating overcompensation.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Death Wisher

Conditioned Identities

I am nothing.
There is no point.
Earth is hell.

also known as

Call of the Void
"SI"

loss / death of

Will to live

Grew Up From

The Burden Child

Primary Smashing Story

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Burden Child's smashings)

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Basement gang Big T

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

Co-signer con Big T Money T

Steel toe boots Big T

Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

iPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by joining the walking dead.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to be a Homo sapiens.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Mystic

Conditioned Identities

I bare humanity's pain.
“Conceal it, don’t feel it, don’t let it show.”
I am banished underground.

also known as

Chiron
Sagittarius

loss / death of

Genius

Grew Up From

The Powerless Child

Primary Smashing Story

Steel toe boots Big T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Powerless Child's smashings)

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

iPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by inducing soul coma, heart armour, and body cloister.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to witch burning.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Empath

Conditioned Identities

I am no one.
I am not allowed to exist.
Disappear to avoid persecution.

also known as

Canary
Martyr
Collateral Damage

loss / death of

Identity

Grew Up From

The Abandoned Child

Primary Smashing Story

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Abandoned Child'ssmashings)

Stolen Pentium Big T

Someone you know Big T

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Basement gang Big T

Steel toe boots Big T

Shush net Chronic T

Matchbox sparks Big T Money T

IPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by throwing myself on the fire to keep them warm.

Stress Response

Freeze

Trauma Response

Fawn

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to being sacrificial lamb.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Moon Dragon

Conditioned Identities

It’s a sin to shine.
My job is to vanish into the background.
I must shut down my Knowing.

also known as

Yin Power

loss / death of

Radiance

Grew Up From

The Invisible Child

Primary Smashing Story

Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Invisible Child's smashings)

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T

Potato fingers Big T

Someone you know Big T

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Basement gang Big T

Steel toe boots Big T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Shush net Chronic T

ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T

Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate by fading to extinction.

Stress Response

Fawn

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to oppression.

STAGE 1 • THE Naming

Fire Phoenix

Conditioned Identities

I am a danger.
I must shut down my power.
I must isolate.

also known as

Yang

loss / death of

Power

Grew Up From

The Too Much Child

Primary Smashing Story

Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T

Secondary Smashing Stories

(Includes all the Too Much Child's smashings)

Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T

Potato fingers Big T

Someone you know Big T

Basement gang Big T

Steel toe boots Big T

Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T

Shush net Chronic T

Launch funeral Big T Money T

Co-signer con Big T Money T

Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T

iPhone watery grave Big T Money T

Overcompensation Belief

I must overcompensate for human smallness by self-annihilating.

Stress Response

Flight

Trauma Response

Freeze

Stripped Consent

I did not consent to persecution.