To suckle the peace of karmic completion

My Opportestiny™

My Adventures of Opportunity + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Destiny

Ellany Lea - Phoenix Whisperer

Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.

– SUSAN CAIN

This is my creative offering...

Opportestiny™

3 MIN TEASER

4 Types of Knowing

28 MIN TALK

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Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery with seams of gold.

It honors each fragment's story and breathes new life into a once broken, now original vessel.

4 Stages of Opportestiny™

This is a story of human kintsugi, of mending my Humpty Dumpty self back together again to suckle the nectar of karmic completion. Craughing guaranteed.

STAGE 1

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The Smashing

Smashed by others into 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults

STAGE 2

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The Healing

Heal all 4 Types of Knowing to kintsugi my 12 Wounded Children

STAGE 3

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The Reclamation

Reclaim all 4 Types of Knowing to kintsugi my 12 Wounded Adults

STAGE 4

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The Integration

"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."

Mind-Knowing

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Learned conceptual understanding

Heart-Knowing

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Felt emotional comprehension

Body-Knowing

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Lived visceral experience

Soul-Knowing

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Re-membered universal truth

Only in the fever of creation could she recreate her own lost life.

– Anaïs Nin

This was my lost life...

An excruciating examination of decimation, of everything I ever lost... or never even had in the first place.

Childhood

Self-trust

Deservingness

Safety

Innocence

Dignity

Worth

Identity

Genius

Self-expression

Power

Will to live

Nurturance

Choice

Humaneness

Appetite for life

Belonging

Validity

Self-compassion

Relevance

Radiance

Self-esteem

Equity

Wholeness

+ 12 Universal Smashings • Loss of Peace, Time, Joy, Prosperity, Freedom, Trust in goodness of Life, Trust in the Sapiens, Needs, Right to feel, Ability to emote, Embodiment, Thriving

Grief Autopsy Report

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Small T's

Small t

From developmental arrest and/or neglect traumas

16.5

Big T's

Big T

From acute and/or event-based traumas

10

Chronic T's

Chronic T

From repeated and/or prolonged traumas

13

Complex T's

Complex T

From comorbidity of Small, Big and Chronic traumas

9

Intergen T's

Small t

From intergenerational, inherited and/or secondary traumas

11

Pre 6 years old T's

Pre 6

From "you're f*cked for a long time, but there's hope" traumas

10

Pre 3 years old T's

Pre 3

From "you're scared for life, but not f*cked for life" traumas

14.5

Money T's

Money T

From chronic financial poverty, deprivation and/or under-support

CAUSE OF DEATH

Human curelty, stunting,  and dumbassery

MANNER OF DEATH

Chronically treated as object*, animal†, and culprit‡

* ATM, sheath, doormat, machete target
† Scapegoat, sacrificial lamb, alley dog, sitting duck
‡ Atlas, Sisyphus

CORONER'S REMARKS

Incarnation to Earth was a bad, bad idea

Note • Report does not include day-to-day micro-aggressions and micro-assaults that don't "count" as traumas. Sigh.

Grieve. Thoroughly. Anything you lose comes round in another form.

– Rumi /  Altered by Ellany Lea /

Alchemy of Grief into Glory

This is what came round in my other form... all self funded, zero loans, zero credit cards. ⤵︎

131 Countries

Exquisite Fulfillment

Spiritual Intelligence

Ageless Joy + Vitality

10 Types of Freedom

16 Career Reinventions

My Track Record + Koan

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On even days, I wake up haunted by, "Aww crap. Still here." On odd days, I am haunted all day long by, "How am I even still alive, no less at peace in joy?"

If I wrote my whole story to my whole Self, could I be freed from this haunting, given a track record of ⤵︎

CPTSD

ME/CFS

ADHD

MCAS

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BPI

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MDD

TBI

Many -itis's