
To suckle the peace of karmic completion
My Opportestiny™
My Adventures of Opportunity + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Test + Destiny


Whatever pain you can’t get rid of, make it your creative offering.
– SUSAN CAIN
This is my creative offering...
Opportestiny™
3 MIN TEASER
4 Types of Knowing
28 MIN TALK

Kintsugi (金継ぎ) is the Japanese art of mending broken pottery with seams of gold.
It honors each fragment's story and breathes new life into a once broken, now original vessel.
4 Stages of Opportestiny™
This is a story of human kintsugi, of mending my Humpty Dumpty self back together again to suckle the nectar of karmic completion. Craughing guaranteed.
STAGE 1

The Smashing
Smashed by others into 12 Wounded Children and 12 Wounded Adults
STAGE 4

The Integration
"Ella, you were never the shards. You are the gold that mends."
Mind-Knowing
🧠
Learned conceptual understanding
Heart-Knowing
💖
Felt emotional comprehension
Body-Knowing
👣
Lived visceral experience
Soul-Knowing
⭐️
Re-membered universal truth

Only in the fever of creation could she recreate her own lost life.
– Anaïs Nin


Childhood

Self-trust

Deservingness

Safety

Innocence

Dignity

Worth

Identity

Genius

Self-expression

Power

Will to live

Nurturance

Choice

Humaneness

Appetite for life

Belonging

Validity

Self-compassion

Relevance

Radiance

Self-esteem

Equity

Wholeness
+ 12 Universal Smashings • Loss of Peace, Time, Joy, Prosperity, Freedom, Trust in goodness of Life, Trust in the Sapiens, Needs, Right to feel, Ability to emote, Embodiment, Thriving

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Small T's
From developmental arrest and/or neglect traumas
16.5
Big T's
From acute and/or event-based traumas
10
Chronic T's
From repeated and/or prolonged traumas
13
Complex T's
From comorbidity of Small, Big and Chronic traumas
9
Intergen T's
From intergenerational, inherited and/or secondary traumas
11
Pre 6 years old T's
From "you're f*cked for a long time, but there's hope" traumas
10
Pre 3 years old T's
From "you're scared for life, but not f*cked for life" traumas

CAUSE OF DEATH
Human curelty, stunting, and dumbassery
MANNER OF DEATH
Chronically treated as object*, animal†, and culprit‡
* ATM, sheath, doormat, machete target
† Scapegoat, sacrificial lamb, alley dog, sitting duck
‡ Atlas, Sisyphus
CORONER'S REMARKS
Incarnation to Earth was a bad, bad idea
Note • Report does not include day-to-day micro-aggressions and micro-assaults that don't "count" as traumas. Sigh.

Grieve. Thoroughly. Anything you lose comes round in another form.
– Rumi / Altered by Ellany Lea /
Alchemy of Grief into Glory
This is what came round in my other form... all self funded, zero loans, zero credit cards. ⤵︎
131 Countries
Exquisite Fulfillment
Spiritual Intelligence
Ageless Joy + Vitality
10 Types of Freedom
16 Career Reinventions
My Track Record + Koan

On even days, I wake up haunted by, "Aww crap. Still here." On odd days, I am haunted all day long by, "How am I even still alive, no less at peace in joy?"
If I wrote my whole story to my whole Self, could I be freed from this haunting, given a track record of ⤵︎

CPTSD

ME/CFS

ADHD

MCAS

BPI

MDD
TBI
Many -itis's