Stage 1A • The Smashing of 12 Wounded Children
Shortcuts • Insufficient • Disposable • Failure • Burden • Powerless • Abandoned • Invisible • Too Much • Unsafe • Freak • Mistake • Deprived
My Insufficient Child
Loss / death of
Innocence
Also known as
Parentified Child
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Missing 1% Chronic T | BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6 | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T | |
| Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3 Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3 Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Fawn
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to parentification.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all adult inadequacies.
My Disposable Child
Loss / death of
Worth
Also known as
Garbage
Grew into
The Wild Woman
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6 | |
| Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Potato fingers Big T | |
| Someone you know Big T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Flight
Trauma Response
Fawn
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to being born on Earth.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all gender inequality.
My Failure Child
Loss / death of
Self-esteem
Also known as
Money Tree
ATM Dispenser
Grew into
The Overachiever
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Cheque kneeling Chronic T Money T |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 | |
| Launch funeral Big T Money T | |
| Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T | |
| Matchbox sparks Big T Money T | |
| Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Flight
Trauma Response
Freeze
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to objectified exploitation.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human stunting.
My Burden Child
Loss / death of
Appetite for life
Also known as
Another Mouth to Feed
Grew into
The Death Wisher
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| Garbage bag windows Small t | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Flight
Trauma Response
Freeze
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to intergenerational poverty.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human scarcity.
My Powerless Child
Loss / death of
Self-compassion
Also known as
Victim of Circumstance
Grew into
The Mystic
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Disposable canary Complex T |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3 | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Neck yank Big T Pre 3 | |
| YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3 | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Potato fingers Big T | |
| Someone you know Big T | |
| Launch funeral Big T Money T | |
| Fraud and Frauder Big T Money T | |
| 9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6 | |
| Chintok name massacre Chronic T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T | |
| Shush net Chronic T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Freeze
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to suppressive siphon.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human cruelty.
My Abandoned Child
Loss / death of
Nurturance
Also known as
Orphan
Starseed
Grew into
The Empath
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Crib expulsion Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3 | |
| Spiritual kamikazes Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Neck yank Big T Pre 3 | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Potato fingers Big T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T | |
| Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Fawn
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to being dumped.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human primitiveness.
My Invisible Child
Loss / death of
Relevance
Also known as
Wallpaper
Grew into
The Moon Dragon
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T | |
| Chintok name massacre Chronic T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Fawn
Trauma Response
Freeze
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to insignificance.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human unconsciousness.
My Too Much Child
Loss / death of
Self-trust
Also known as
Gifted Child
Target Practice
Grew into
The Fire Phoenix
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
Stress Response
Flight
Trauma Response
Freeze
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to bullying/smart shaming.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human ignorance.
My Unsafe Child
Loss / death of
Safety
Also known as
Sitting Duck
Prey
Grew into
The Ouroboros
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Phone tape guts Big T Pre 3 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3 | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| Potato fingers Big T | |
| Someone you know Big T | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Garbage bag windows Small t | |
| Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6 | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Dump trucks paralysis Big T 💰 PTSD | |
| Basement gang Big T | |
| Steel toe boots Big T | |
| Fraud and Frauder Big T 💰 PTSD | |
| Co-signer con Big T 💰 PTSD | |
| 9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6 | |
| Chintok name massacre Chronic T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T | |
| Gaslighting ballet Chronic T 💰 PTSD | |
| Shush net Chronic T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T 💰 PTSD | |
| Matchbox sparks Big T Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Mass grave skulls Small t Intergen T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Flight
Trauma Response
Freeze
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to soul murder.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human betrayal.
My Freak Child
Loss / death of
Belonging
Also known as
Black Sheep
Grew into
The Polymath
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| 9 schools in 12 yearsChronic T Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Phone tape guts Big TPre 3Intergen T | |
| Vanishing school bus Big TPre 6 | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Launch funeral Big TMoney T | |
| Chintok name massacre Chronic T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Toilet water bullies Chronic T | |
| Spiritual kamikazes Complex TPre 3Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex TPre 6 | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic TPre 3Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic TPre 3Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic TPre 3Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic TPre 3Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Freeze
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to ostracization.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human fracture.
My Mistake Child
Loss / death of
Validity
Also known as
Scapegoat
Sinner
Grew into
The Immigrant
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| Machete target practice Complex T Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Greatness cancellation Big T | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 | |
| Garbage bag windows Small t | |
| Chintok name massacre Chronic T | |
| Balkans bullies Chronic T | |
| Toilet water bullies hronic T | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Defective thing Complex T Pre 6 | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Fawn
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to being blame landfill.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human smallness.
My Deprived Child
Loss / death of
Deservingness
Also known as
Alley Dog
Grew into
The Freedompreneur
| My Smashings | Story Dedications |
|---|---|
| Primary Smashing | |
| No fishies for you Small t Pre 6 |
BECOME A PATRON |
| Secondary Smashing | |
| Co-signer con Big T Money T | |
| YWCA brass knob Big T Pre 3 | |
| Vanishing school bus Big T Pre 6 | |
| Crib expulsion Small t Pre 6 | |
| Hallway holes Big T Pre 6 | |
| Stolen Pentium Big T | |
| Dump trucks paralysis Big T Money T | |
| Gaslighting ballet Chronic T Money T | |
| Blue screen of death Chronic T Money T | |
| Matchbox sparks Big T Money T | |
| iPhone watery grave Big T Money T | |
| Baby co-parent Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| ATM dispenser Complex T Pre 3Money T | |
| River dump girl Complex T Pre 3 | |
| Disposable canary Complex T Pre 6 Money T | |
| Plugs in the socket Complex T Pre 6Money T | |
| Nausea crossing Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Train platform hunt Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Diaper bracelet Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
| Unacceptable passport Chronic T Pre 3 Intergen T | |
Stress Response
Fawn
Trauma Response
Flight
Stripped Consent
I did not consent to war refugee displacement.
Overcompensation Belief
I must overcompensate for all human greed.
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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Having lived, died and traveled 131 countries, 87 emotions, 16 career reinventions, and 46.5 traumas, Ellany Lea inspires and guides women overachievers, phoenixes, wisdom keepers, and entrepreneurs to free her genius, so it frees the world.
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